Sad ah~ I tink i’m under lots of stress and pressure. Dunno frm where. But these are sum of the symptoms u will find in me:

1) Feel damn wear off and tired at the beginning of the day.

2) Breathe loudly and heavily when asleep. I dun really mind u call tat snoring. Haha~

3) Sleep almost instantaneous when i’m in bed. And basically, i sleep anywhere, any time.

4) I will start to do my sleep talking and sleep walking stunts.

Just like wat i stated in point 4, i was lying around on my living room’s sofa yesterday nite. But the next morning i’m in my own room. But i dun remember a single heck tat i walk in myself.

While my sis has been telling me, last nite, i carried a pillow wif me to her room. I woke her up in the middle of the nite, talk abt school related stuff in mandarin, den ended the conversation wif a wide ‘Hee~ Hee~’ smile.

This isn’t the first time… Gosh…

Went shopping wif Yi Mei in the town. Din really get buy what i wanna to… Onli manage to get myself a pair of pants for $10. Cheap lobang lor…

Today is Peng’s last day in NUH. He came earlier today, manage to see him. Sit down and take a sip of drink and chatted for a while. He ganna football in his eyes. So he came earlier to work to the A&E; department. Funny lar…

Well~ Peng is a self-confident person. You can often find bright lights glowing in him. So gotta some good advices from him. Real good ones. At least feel less pessimitic for the future. Slightly noe what are more important now. Guess it’s time to sit down and set goals bah…

Btw, just post something to discuss on. Given a choice, you will like to be a devoted lover or a flirtatious one?

Heez… Today is sort of a gathering wif the click: Jacky, Lester, Laily, Serene, Karen and Christopher.

We meet around 2pm at PS. Taken the Ajisen Japanese Ramen Restaurant. Me ordered the spicy miso ramen wif a side-dish fried tofu. Hmm… The soup base is nice. Not bad! So far this is my 2nd try for ramen, the veri 1st time is at Far East Plaza Level 1. That’s terribly awful. I dun enjoy what I ate. Feel like eating those left-overs. I dun recommend u guys to eat there.

Watch “Cold Mountain”. It’s quite a miracle to see the character, Inman, survived through all those difficult situations. And of course, he died in the end… Which is kinda expected. Not really bombastic or “whoa” visual effects, but the story is really touching. You have those war scenes where u see the cruel world. U haf all ur bubbies dead in front of u and stuff. War, often a journey of no return. And the “friends” whom he met on the way. U can do nothing but to believe in and trust them, working hand in hand to escape frm the soldiers. All the missing feelings of ur family members, ur love ones who went frontline.

Cried a few times throughout the movies. And of course, silently. That’s why I always choose the corner seats. Heez… Cried when Ada part wif Inman, Inman’s friends who died, the lady in the hut wif the sick baby, the reunion of Inman and Ada, the death of Inman… I think there are some more which I kinda forget. Not a bad show to catch… Can visit this site: www.coldmountainmovie.com

Din really accomplish what I actually intended – shopping trip. So I’m gonna get down to town again tml.

Haf been telling Karen and Christopher some of the silly things I did:

1) There are those handles which u grip on those SBS bus. Erm… Those that are attached to the seats ones. Last time primary school, I dunno how, folded my elbow into the in-between hole in my school bus and ultimately get it stuck in the hole. Reach the stop where I suppose to alight. But because of this, the bus is stalled for quite a long time. Bus uncle (driver) and auntie (auntie who jaga us) came and pull my elbow out. I remembered I was crying like hell. Then my elbow went swollen for days…

2) Saw my cousin playing wif the lift door. He put his hand on the lift. As the door slide opened, he still rested his hand on the door. But then lifted out the hand just before the door is fully opened. Well… Stupid me, find it interesting. One day taking a lift back home wif my family. Rested my hand on the door oso. But I forgotten to take my hand off the door before it completely slide open. So my hand is trap inside within the door. Dad is trying to pull my hands out, Mum is pushing the lift button. It takes at 30 minutes. Somemore with the help of a passer-by.

3) I used to drink strawberry milk every nite. And I pour the milk into my favorite cup (little pink one). Drink them in my bedroom. Saw the prickled heat powder (those baby powder when applied got those menthol menthol feeling one) on the dressing table. My throat wasn’t feeling well. So I was thinking, if applied on skin, I haf the cooling sensation, might as well drink it. My wind pipe and the throat will feel cool. I put quite a lot into the drink, somemore stir them. Not bad… Hahahaha~ Landed throwing up in the middle of the nite.

4) Haf u guys wondered since a puncher can punch a hole on the paper, how will it look like on the hair? My thought is that: I will look cool and special if there are holes in my hair. Something like curtain, got pattern one. I was so happy that day because my mum tied my hair up wif the ribbons I like. So I excitedly took quite a big bundles of hair, ready to be punched. Well~ I was totally shocked! I expected to see holes in my hair, but the whole strands just being cut off. I quickly throw them into the rubbish bin, cover them wif tissue papers.

I always do all the silly stuff. It’s not that I din think of the consequences, but they just dun tally wif the actual thing.

冷锋过境 – 5566

真的无法改变了吗

你拨开我的手掌

看着远方 宣告了放弃

真的彻底忘记了吗

你赖着我的胸膛

反复的唱 永远在一起

冷风过境 吹乱心情 露出了伤心

我有 多么伤多么痛 你不会相信

冷风过境 吹动记忆 心无法痊愈

等待 多么苦多么难 你忘了约定

真的无法再改变吗

你有了新的方向

不再勉强 擦掉了过去

真的已彻底忘记吗

你给过我的信仰 共同分享

永远的意义

冷风过境吹乱心情 露出了伤心

我有 多么伤多么痛 你不会相信

冷风过境 吹动记忆 心无法痊愈

等待 有多苦有多难 梦何时会醒

Boyfriend – 5566

I’m sorry for me buggin’ you

Sorry for being such a fool

God knows I’ve tried but I can’t let go

I’m crazy ’bout you know who

I’m sorry for me needing you

Sorry girl that you don’t feel it too

I get the point, should be a man about it

I’ve never been good at that – no no

Forgive me for being me

I’ve tried to let go

I know you got a boyfriend-another man

Another guy by your side

Someone who hopefully treats you right

But you don’t know how much I wish that I was

Your boyfriend – that other guy

The only one who’s allowed

In your room to lay in your arms at night

Now you don’t know how much I wish that I was your boyfriend

I’m sorry for me wanting you

Sorry for not playing by the rules

But what would you do if you were in my shoes

Feeling lost and blue

I’m sorry for me lovin’ you

Sorry for being such a fool

God knows I’ve tried but I can’t let go

I’m crazy ’bout you know who

Another man is by your side

I hope he treats you right

I wish I was the only one

To lay in your arms at night

Well you can’t blame a guy for tryin’

Now what else can I do

And how I wish that my prayers, thoughts and dreams

Would become reality

Without Your Love – 5566

盛夏的午后 漫无目地的走

火红的星球 怎么温暖不了我

你走了以后 只留下寒冬

回忆的天空 再看不见彩虹

雨下的太多 怎么打进我的心头

渐渐淹没我 逃不开伤痛

我躲在你给的体温 散尽后你却不加温

我痴痴等 痴痴的冷

刻在胸膛上的吻痕 深刻却找不到永恒

心碎陪我哭到无声 我痴痴等 只能痴痴冷

缤纷的周末 黑色才属于我

拥挤的人群 怎么留我在角落

想你的笑容像拥有宇宙 带给我快乐 只因为有你

谁能替代你来拼凑 我散落一地的美梦

再听不见你说爱我

without your love without your love

我难过 – 5566

那一年默默无言 只能选择离开

无邪的笑容已经 不再精彩

你害怕结局所以 拼命伤害

说是我挡住你的 美好未来

你坚决 不希望我等待

我便默默的让你走开

如今你 受了伤回来

叫我如何接受这安排

我难过的是 放弃你 放弃爱

放弃的梦被打碎 忍住悲衮

我以为 是成全

你却说你更不愉快

我难过的是 忘了你 忘了爱

尽全力忘记我们 真心相爱

也忘了告诉你 失去的不能重来

挑拨 – 5566

你看起来不太开心 谁困扰了你

让你的眼神看来有些悲哀

有多严重 你和他之间

到了不可收拾的局面了吗

我看起来也不太好 我当然知道

因为你的表情让我很心疼

你不了解 我和你之间

只是爱上了不爱我 却又在乎(他)的人

应该挑拨你和他 我想这是最好的时机

只是当你哭着说你还爱他 不忍离开他

我竟努力扮演你和他之间的和事佬

应该劝你离开他 可是我怎么也做不到

因为当你笑着说 我最好了 是你知心朋友

想做你的情人

RAP:

Huh look here girl

Look straight into this heart right here

This is how much I love ya

Like the moon vever smile without the shinning stars

But but I ain’t no peacemaker

Wanna be your love,wanna be your lover

So, all around the clock, girl(all around the world)

I’ll still be waiting for you, right here

The Way – Clay Aiken

There’s something bout the way you look tonight

There’s something bout the way that i can’t take my eyes off you

There’s something bout the way your lips invite

Maybe its the way that i get nervous when your around

And I want you to be mine

And if u need a reason why

It’s in the way that you move me

And the way that you tease me

The way that I want you tonight

It’s in the way that you hold me

And the way that you know me

When I can’t find the right words to say

You feel it in the way

(You feel it in the way)

There’s something bout how you stay on my mind

There’s something bout the way that I whisper your name when I’m asleep

Maybe its the look you get in your eyes

Oh baby its the way that makes me feel to see you smile

And the reasons they may change but what i’m feeling stays the same.

I can’t put my fingers on just what it is that makes me love you, you baby

So don’t ask me to describe

I get all choked up inside

Just thinking about the way

Don’t Wanna Try – Frankie J

Don’t wanna try don’t wanna try (try try)

Don’t wanna try no more

Don’t wanna try don’t wanna try don’t wanna try

I can’t believe u had the nerve to say the things u said

They hurt so bad that they ended our relationship

I can’t believe it ..4 years go down the drain

Oh how i wish things would of happened so differently

I try’d to save it so many times but you still couldn’t see

U kept insistin’ and resistin’ that u would not fall again

And now u tryin’ to tell me that ur sorry

And ur tryin’ to come back home

Ur tellin’ me u really need me crying beggin both knees are on the floor

But baby i

Don’t wanna try don’t wanna try don’t wanna try no more

U keep insisting when u know our love is out the door

Don’t wanna try don’t wanna try cuz all we do is fight and say the things

I hurt u bad to when we both begin to cry

Don’t wanna try don’t wanna try i ’bout just had enough its been a rough road

Baby just let it go

Don’t wanna try don’t wanna try don’t wanna try no more

Tell me whats the use of holdin’ on when all we do is hurt our love

U and i had many conversations on the telephone

Talks about one day we having a place of our own

Wake up in the morning and have breakfast ready on the table

But all of that just seems so far away from me

Had to wake up face reality

It all just seem to good to be true after all you put me through

And now u tryin’ to tell me that ur sorry

And u tryin’ to come back home

U tellin’ me that u really need me crying beggin both knees are on the floor

But baby i

Don’t wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more

U keep insisting when u know our love is out the door

Don’t wanna try dont wanna try cuz all we do is fight and say the things

I hurt u bad to when we both begin to cry

Dont wanna try don’t wanna try i bout just had enough its been a rough road

Baby just let it go

Don’t wanna try don’t wanna try don’t wanna try no more

Tell me whats the use of holdin’ on when all we do is hurt our love

These few days a bit ‘guai’ wif me. I dunno why also. Not really a mood swing. Maybe because of my… *Ahem* Period… Hahahaha~

Well~ Veri quiet me. Veri impatient. Thinking quite a lot. In the end making myself so stress up, as though i’m really hafing mood swing.

Disappointment! It’s always the same thing that happen, though not the same situations but the same ‘concept’ thingy. Ppl haf been coming in and out. “IN” as in real close, “OUT” as in i lost interest in them and they lost interest in me and den “HI-BYE”.

Den i reflected on my own personalities. Should i talk less and listen more? Becoz ppl cannot stand my straight-forwardness, my direct response? Or is it my heck-care attitude? I’m not responsive enuff? I’m too cold? Or is it i look as if i will mood swing any minute? Is my time so insignificant to others tat they can spend mine as well, for me?

I’m pretty troubled. I haf a mixture of feelings. When i smile, i noe i dun mean to smile whole-heartedly. When i’m talking, i’m actually trying to balance out the number of sentences i say each day, just to make sure i dun hear thing like “a… y so quiet?”

Not that all faults lie in the others. I admit quite a number of times it lies in me.

But back to sumthing cheerful, i’m looking forward to the shopping trips… Maybe i can get all my energy recharged, my emotions tidied up.

我的錯 – B . A . D .

飛機已離開機場

妳選擇了前往妳的方向

不再迷惘

忘了我們愛的過往

忘了我給妳的傷

學會堅強

從前的我不懂妳犧牲多大

為我失去朋友不講

還放棄了所有夢想

覺得沒怎樣

不會將心比心去想

讓妳慢慢慢慢失去了希望

能不能夠再給我機會好好的愛妳

我會仔細的聆聽

妳對我說的一言一語

我會學會去控制脾氣不讓妳傷心

對妳好好的去珍惜

請妳相信我的心還是愛妳

我想再重來一次

回到過去彌補妳的傷

沒那種事

怎麼做才能夠停止

後悔竟傷妳如此

不再放肆

為何總到失去才懂的難過

當妳在我身邊的時候

總是為我默默守候

都是為我的錯

錯過這難得的擁有

就讓妳愛我的心慢慢溜走

能不能夠再給我機會好好的愛妳

我會仔細的聆聽

妳對我說的一言一語

我會學會去控制脾氣不讓妳傷心

對妳好好的去珍惜

請妳相信我的心還是愛妳

Friday went to IKEA for a weekend shopping… But in the end, lost my wallet @ tat area. This is dunno the how many times already. Most of the times i drop it, one or two times it was stolen. Poor me… The most stupid thing is: i onli discover it the next morning, when i intend to go out… Lucky me, OCBC bank called me up half way thru my job. She told me someone found my wallet near the anchor point foodcourt. So she put me thru the person who is still holding the line. This person is one of the foodcourt drink store helper. Thank god!

Not much lost this time round. I onli put $2 bucks in there. And i dun bother to withdraw money. Cash is gone. Lost my cashcard. But never mind, inside onli left a few cents. And i dun bother to top-up oso. Conclusion is: the person who got my wallet will think that this gal is a poor chap. Hahahaha~

By the way, can you guys gif be suggestion on how to be more cautious not to loss my wallet again? I’m scolded by my dad becoz of this. Sian… So naggy… His face jit tao black black…

Yesterday vday… Received 2 missed phone calls from Xing Cai. Wanted to meet me up for dinner. But i onli discover it 1 hr later. So he is on his way back home. Pai seh! Pai seh!

I just haf a craving for movie tat nite, any movie. And i gif a try to call HIM.

Me: Halo? Is so-and-so at home?

His Family: Who are you?

Me: I’m his friend.

Him: Halo?

Me: A! Wanna go catch a movie?

Him: A… I’m meeting up wif my frendz later leh…

Me: Orh… Ok lor… Bye bye!

See?! I haf tried… Frendz is so much important to HIM. Why his last minute phone calls work for me, but my last minute calls dun work for HIM? Not fair! He dun like to be tied down. Well~ I shall let HIM free…

And i got 1 vday gift frm Karen. Thanks… (^.^)

*/edited: Read other’s blog. Gotta know how others celebrated their vday, how they feel and think about vday. Some are really ridic. Haha~ Dunno what they are up to…/*

Happy Valentine Day to everyone…

And erm… I haf actually created another blog at this address:

https://www.itpcomplaint.blogspot.com

By the title, you should know what the hell this is about. I really dun wish to dirty my current blog, so i created another one… Heez~ And erm… I’m not done wif the comment box yet, so please be patience wif me…

1 last thing: People wif the same ITP company wif me, dun surf this website (itpcomplaint) during work. I dun wan ganna trace and stuff and ganna all those unnessary problems. I’m a hypocrite! Haha~

I lied… Sorry to my parents… I haven been taking my medicine for at least a week. I lied to u that I’m finishing them. I should haf taken my own initiative.

Well~ In order not to dirty my blog, I decided not to mention anything about my ITP. Maybe just a summary bah. IT JUST SUCKS!

Haf been facing quite a number of problems lately. Firstly, I really dun haf time for myself, no life… Secondly, WSC competition is just around the corner, I’m still not familiar with the test format and mac computer. Thirdly, haf been throwing temper at my parents when they try to wake me up. Both of them volunteer to pack my breakfast in a disposable plastic bag every morning. I appreciate it. And I apologize for what I haf done. Lastly, I think I need to be left alone at times. Too sian wif all the people around.