Hmm… still busy doing my acan in school. Rather boring. But my zhan dou level for today is quite high. Can start my animation by this afternoon le.
I changed my napfa date to the 30th tis morning. Still thinking whether to go or not. Extend zai shuo bah… Receive a little gift from Serene, a hair pin. Like it.
Yesterday i “touch” my personal diary. Wrote a lot of stuff that are accumulated for the past few days. Altogether, i wrote around 3 to 4 pages. Hmm… Hasn’t break my longest record yet. But words written are tiny and neat lor… Then i read my previous entries AGAIN. Well… The issue is surrounding ZX, for sure. And now, he juz disappoints me again. I dunno how many excuses can i find for his actions. Maybe he dunno that his little act has a great impact in me, maybe he didn’t get the message thru, maybe this, maybe that…
Just dun understand why i feel diappointed with every friend that i have. No matter how good they are, no matter how close they are, no matter how important they are to me. There is just little little thingy that i cannot accept. Especially for close friends. I dare not invest too much nor get to noe too much about them. I bound to dig out something that i feel disgust with.
There is this little stage that i always need to leap over. This little stage is always repeating and cuming back to my life. Same as what some others maybe writing in their blog “WHO ARE MY REAL FRIENDS? WILL THEY BE WITH ME WHEN I’M IN NEED?” All these questions that pop up, couldn’t stop me from evaluating “who are my friends?”. This isn’t the first time i feel this.
Nobody in specific i’m linking my thoughts to. Perhaps it’s ZX… Perhaps it’s juz my recollection of the past that brought me to such conclusion. If this time i can’t leap over this obstacle, i dunno what will happen. Obvious ones will be change in attitude, change in personality.
Am i stressed? I also dunno. Juz feel a mixture of several feelings…
Got tied down with my ACAN animation in school today. Well… Todae is a good day to sleep. Very nice and cool weather. So shuang.
A… Todae is the graduation day for our previous batch of DMSE students. I dunno about this until somebody mentioned it. I missed my chance. Hai… There are 2 person in the previous batch whom i’m looking forward to see them again. There goes for my chance.
Manage to board my bus back home at around 7pm. Fall asleep in the journey. I just can’t help closing my eyes. They are just too heavy to be lifted up. Reach Bukit Batok Interchange to take another shuttle loop bus. Sob! Sob! I saw my primary school classmate, Xing Cai. Haha… Think he can’t recognise me.
It’s been quite a long time we last met. Though in same poly but we are at different ends of the poly. Missed the days i have with him. I always feel great when i talk to him, both on phone and face to face. Still remember those good old days, we are both prefects, librarians, love chinese, love badminton… We are good friends. And of course, there is this little ‘liking’ thing – chemistry, i will say.
Still remember the first time we ‘date’. Haha… This is 5 to 6 years back, when i’m in secondary 1. Guess what?! I suggested to go library. He hates library since then. Library thingy is just not his type. From then, everytime we go out, he will tease me. Saying that i should seek for more entertainment rather than libraries and books. Well… My parents are still very strict at that period of time. So no entertainment for me.
As for now, when he sees me, he will ask:”Are you attached?” And of course, the reply is always “No!”.
Yesterday was my presentation day – interim. Not that bad actually… At least better than what i have predicted. Though certain things are last minute work, but i have nothing to comment about all these. It’s not that we deserve last minute work and making us so busy for the past few days. Nobody should question the effort we put in. Just that everything is not rite. Everything! Erm… This isn’t any negative thought. I’m leaving everything to the god, the fate, and our luck.
Went to eat pasta mania with a lot of coursemates – unusual combination. But nice and fun. I ordered that STUFFED CHEESE PASTA. Arghh… Too creamy le, cannot take it. But it is nice on the other hand. Later, we went to watch a movie – S.W.A.T., at P.S. Another action-pack movie. Isn’t tat bad. There are climax, twists and turns, and some expected storyline. I usually dun feel regret on watching any movies i picked. So, same goes for this… Perhaps, i’m just too tired. I fall asleep halfway through. But later woken up by the loud sound effect. Hee…
Yesterday is a good day, just that my legs are aching becoz i’m wearing the cok – cok shoes. Therefore, the moody level went up and up. I’ve have looked in front of the mirror several times. Awesome! I just looked like those shang ban zu… Chio leh! Look mature, professional, etc…
Somebody say i look like those chongsters. Hmm… This isn’t the first time. Do i look like one??? I always wonder. =p