Hmm… still busy doing my acan in school. Rather boring. But my zhan dou level for today is quite high. Can start my animation by this afternoon le.
I changed my napfa date to the 30th tis morning. Still thinking whether to go or not. Extend zai shuo bah… Receive a little gift from Serene, a hair pin. Like it.
Yesterday i “touch” my personal diary. Wrote a lot of stuff that are accumulated for the past few days. Altogether, i wrote around 3 to 4 pages. Hmm… Hasn’t break my longest record yet. But words written are tiny and neat lor… Then i read my previous entries AGAIN. Well… The issue is surrounding ZX, for sure. And now, he juz disappoints me again. I dunno how many excuses can i find for his actions. Maybe he dunno that his little act has a great impact in me, maybe he didn’t get the message thru, maybe this, maybe that…
Just dun understand why i feel diappointed with every friend that i have. No matter how good they are, no matter how close they are, no matter how important they are to me. There is just little little thingy that i cannot accept. Especially for close friends. I dare not invest too much nor get to noe too much about them. I bound to dig out something that i feel disgust with.
There is this little stage that i always need to leap over. This little stage is always repeating and cuming back to my life. Same as what some others maybe writing in their blog “WHO ARE MY REAL FRIENDS? WILL THEY BE WITH ME WHEN I’M IN NEED?” All these questions that pop up, couldn’t stop me from evaluating “who are my friends?”. This isn’t the first time i feel this.
Nobody in specific i’m linking my thoughts to. Perhaps it’s ZX… Perhaps it’s juz my recollection of the past that brought me to such conclusion. If this time i can’t leap over this obstacle, i dunno what will happen. Obvious ones will be change in attitude, change in personality.
Am i stressed? I also dunno. Juz feel a mixture of several feelings…