Too much of the suaning thing todae. Laily has been so panick when we are hafing lunch in the fc6. Hahaha… We are ganna frighten by a couple of ppl who wore checker shirt.

It’s another monday blue. Sian… Still veri tie up wif FYP. But dun feel like doing anything. Today i tried out the skylight mentioned by ahmad in the last lecture. Well… the effects are nice. But the rendering time is veri long. Wif an increase in the value of the bounces, it jus increase the whole rendering time by about 1 time more. Tat’s long… Ahmad asks me whether do i tink it is worth-while investing on such long time rendering. I replied tat i will onli use them for certain choots, nt all the scenes.

Yar… Nothing really shocking happen. But i dreamt of 1 blue, 1 red, 1 yellow giant spiders. They are crawling to my bed and the walls. They are jus as big as the spiders in the movie – 8 legged freaks. Then those spiders gt soldiers one. They are small little yellow beetles. Crawling beetles. Yucky…

I gt a shock oso when i’m in the toilet. A yellow beetle flys in front of me, to the sink. Wat leow! Then all the recap of the dream jus rush back to my mind. Sian… I need to check out wat spider means le… Byee…

Yesterday, celebrate Serene’s 19th birthday. Erm… An early celebration actually. Today will be the actual one. So… HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U! I’ll need to shout this out to Wei Jyh oso. Happy 19th Birthday. Pretty surprise to find out tat Serene and ur birthday fall in the same day.

So a recap of wat has happen yesterday. I cum veri late for FYP yesterday. No mood to do any stuff. Attend the ELIT lecture as usual. Dunno why, it seems like it’s a long time ago we last attend his lesson. But, his lecture is always filled wif laughter. Endless laughter…

Then, we proceed to Marina Square’s PONDEROSA. We drop off at the Suntec City. Shock (for me) to spot a veri familiar shadow. Well… It’s Laily’s prince charming. A grp of his frendz are doing sum video shooting. Of coz, he notices us as our click enters. And then, sumone dun wish to leave the an fa xian chang. The prince charming murmur to his frendz ard him. Suddenly, all of them focus their attention at Laily. We noe wat’s going wrong. Lester and co oso not bad leh! U guys response quite fast huh… Once I tell u Laily’s prince charming is ard, u guys get it veri quickly.

No time is wasted. We gals go to the restaurant first. DRAGGING LAILY ALONG… Well… The food is nice. I order the Grill Gourmet. Nice! And plus the salad buffet, tat’s fulling. Play sum table games and proceed on wif the opening present ceremony. First gift is frm us, G-string. Hahaha… Tat’s to play wif her. Second gift is frm us again, tat’s a pair of handphone accessories. The purpose is to suan her. Last gift is a cushion frm us oso. The guys bought her a necklace.

Wanting to take more pictures. We assemble at the marina square’s staircase (veri significant one). Take a couple of grp photos. And I spot Laily’s prince charming again. I direct my click’s attention to him. So Qin suggests getting him to help us take photos. Qin quickly seize the opportunity and approach him as he walk nearer. We oso naughty lah. Ask Laily to take the camera back frm him after the shooting. Well, her standing position is really unsuitable for her to walk down. But the whole click shout her name. She mus be damn embarrassed.

Then, dunno who cum out wif a brilliant idea again (I tink it’s me), to ask him to take individual photo wif Laily. Haha… But the guy has gone far. Qin chase him back. As for us, those waiting at the stairs are so anxious. Thinking whether is it 1 person returning or 2 ppl returning.

Wat leow! Heng ah! 2 ppl cuming back. Haha… Sumone pai sei lor… Keep holding on to my arms. The prince charming requests a grp photo, so we respect him. And Qin hor! I mus really mention tis. U really hui zuo ren leh… Though u say take photo. But the first few taken by u is extreme zoom to the 2 main leads lor. Qin! U brilliant lor… Then, we ask the prince charming frend to take another photo for the complete grp. Tat will be the actual one.

Haha… No regrets lor. I first time commit such “crimes”. I can sense Laily’s shivering. We all go “Whoa… Woo… Ah…” when Qin shows us wat she actually taken. Hahaha… Well… We are juz a bunch of monkeys and kids. So monkeys do silly and nonsensical stuff. However, Laily has been complaining tat she has no chances to noe him. There it is… We haf created 1 for u… Plus, we dun haf much time in sch anymore. So tat’s a sweet memory for u…

Qin left us early. The rest go esplanade rooftop. Cool view frm there. First time there, and I jus like it. Next time dating gt one more place to go le… Yipee… Calling out to Qin, u mus go there oso. Veri nice view, u can take photos. Sit down there to talk, sing, play games… We leave there ard 9pm. On the way, Jacky started to dig out who’s the BLACKMAN I haf been mentioning in my blog. Well… secret dig out successfully. But please be fang xin, I won’t invest on him. I noe he dun suit me…

The last station is the Pacific Coffee at CitiLink. I drank the Vanilla Latte. Nice… Jacky’s drink is nice oso… We sit and chat there. There seems to haf so much to talk abt. A chatty click sial… Hahaha… Left at 11:30pm back home.

The Latte didn’t really work for me. I thought I will haf a sleepless nite becoz of the caffeine. But I soon fall asleep.

As for today… Wake up pretty late. Go downstair to cut my hair. It’s untidy and long. Now it looks weird. Meet Laily and Lester in orchard to shop ard for sumthing. Tiring day… See my hair tml pals… (u.u)

Today i haf a story to share:

Jerry is the manager of a restaurant in America. He is always in a good mood and always has something positive to say. When someone would ask him how he was doing, he would always reply,” If I were any better, I would be


Many of the waiters at his restaurant quit their jobs when he changed jobs, so they could follow him around from restaurant to restaurant. The reason the waiters followed Jerry was because of his attitude. He was a natural

motivator. If an employee was having a bad day, Jerry was always there, telling the employee how to look on the positive side of the situation.

Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up to Jerry and asked him, “I don’t get it! No one can be a positive person all of the time. How do you do it?”

Jerry replied, “Each morning I wake up and say to myself, I have two choices today. I can choose to be in a good mood or I can choose to be in a bad mood. I always choose to be in a good mood. Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or I can choose to learn from it. I always choose to learn from it. Everytime someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining or I can point out the positive side of life. I always choose the positive side of life.

“But it’s not always that easy,” I protested.

“Yes, it is,”Jerry said ” Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to situations. You choose how people will affect your mood. You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood. It’s your choice how you live your life.”

Several years later, I heard that Jerry accidentally did something you are never supposed to do in the restaurant business: left the back door of his restaurant open one morning and was robbed by three armed men. While

trying to open the safe, his hand, shaking from nervousness slipped off the combination. The robbers panicked and shot him. Luckily, Jerry was found quickly and rushed to the hospital. After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, Jerry was released from the hospital with fragments of the bullets still in his body. I saw Jerry about six months after the

accident. When I asked him how he was, he replied,” If I were any better, I’d be twins. Want to see my scars?”I declined to see his wounds, but did ask him what had gone through his mind as the robbery took place.

” The first thing that went through my mind was that I should have locked the back door,”

Jerry replied. “Then, after they shot me, as I lay on the floor, I remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live or choose to die. I chose to live. ” Weren’t you scared? “I asked. Jerry continued,” The paramedics were great. They kept telling me. I was going to be fine. But when they wheeled me into the Emergency Room and I saw the expressions on

the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read ‘He’s a dead man.’ I knew I need to take action.”

” What did you do? ” I asked. ” Well, there was a big nurse shouting questions at me,” said Jerry. “She asked if I was allergic to anything.”

‘Yes,’ I replied. The doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply. I took a deep breath and yelled,’ Bullets! ‘Over their laughter, I told them, ‘I am choosing to live. Please operate on me as if I am alive, not dead’ .” Jerry lived thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude.

I learned from him that every day you have the choice to either enjoy your life or to hate it. The only thing that is truly yours that no one can control or take from You is your attitude, so if you can take care of that, everything else in life becomes much easier.

Motivating story… Isn’t it?

I haven’t haf any mood to update my blog. Feeling the ‘sian-ness’ and the ‘stress’ piling.

A… Yesterday, there is a ITP briefing. I went for the Oversea Talk oso. Hai… Ganna frighten by the amount need to pay. Guess is the Middlesex University one. Too expensive… Out of my expected budget. Then think of the lonliness leaving in a foreign country. (T.T)

I feel a sudden lost oso. Jus feel frighten to leave the school and my mates. This feeling is very familiar. Jus like what i haf when our sec sch teacher brief us for the Poly JAE. I jus noe i’ll be leaving. Leaving my current comfortable life. A lost in the future path tat is lay in front of us. Very mang ran

And… Yesterday may be my very last time sitting in MLT11, looking at my BLACKMAN’s back view… Remember the good old days i haf during DEUI, MMPJ and CANI. He will sit in front (but not all the time). Then, while studying, i can take a good look at him.

All these will be memories… As time past, memories fades…

A… Many say my blog is a blog who touch mainly about my personal life. What i do today, who i’m wif, what i dream of and most importantly, which shuai ge i’m crazy about. A blog where i start to fa hua chi about and blah everything out.

Well… Becoz these events are more significant mah… Those school stuff. Ai ya! So many ppl are complaining, grumbling and unsatisfied with. So no point to add on. Leave these to my frendz to raise up and I’ll join in the fun in their blogs then. I’m quite satisfy wif my life actually. Quoting from the previous post, i juz need the followings:

Food + Water + Sunlight + Shelter + Showers of luv + Frendz + Entertainment + Sleep*4 – Overweight = Happy me!

These few days not much of a thing leh. So neber comment much. Poor Charlene is sick again. Maybe onli this is siginificant >>The passerBy, anotherPasserBy, JustAPasserBy, jus passing by nick have been appearing frm blog to blog. It did cause sum commotion. But i guess it will be over.

Yar… Need to blah on wif my dream. I dream of Lester and Qin yesterday. This is hw it goes:

We haf organised a trip to sum other country (need to take plane one). So, the day before, Qin meet me and reminded me to pack up my stuff for the next day tour. Until then, i realise the trip is the cuming day. I quickly rush back home to pack up.

My hse is unusually crowded and re nao. But strange enough, no matter hw i search thru my hse, i juz can’t find my luggage and backpack. Night has fall… there is no shop tat is open. I started to panick. Qin and Lester are waiting for me at Terminal 1.

Stupid enough! I tell them i will be late. Expecting tat the plane will wait for me. So they wait for me frm bright day light till dark nite. I still didn’t turn up in the Terminal. And still cannt find my luggage.

Qin says this is my dilemma. Becoz in reality, my parents dun allow me to go abroad for holidays. So in my dream, i’m still facing and struggling wif the same problem. Can’t find my luggage == Pressure from my parents.

I quite agree…

Haf been accumulating stuff frm yesterday to today. So, try to squeeze them into 1 entry.

Yesterday, Jacky, Laily, Serene and me go to the Expo Food fair. Wat piang eh! Too crowded sial. A lot of ppl. There are a lot of variety of food, but I managed to try some tat is appealing to me. 1st dish: shark fin soup, 2nd dish: puff-like thing, 3rd dish: cocktail fruits, 4th dish: noodle. Wanted to eat the duck roll. But the queue veri long. Sad… Lester joins us in the fair for ard 1 hr. Hahaha… He is busy actually… So we help ourselves and walk ard lor. We ended up in the Changi Airport to watch aeroplane. Hmm… Too tired until I fall asleep. Then we proceed to Bugis to buy present for sumbody.

As for today… Lester, Serene, Qin and me go to Bukit Timah Hill to hike. Tis is my 3rd time there. Well… I’m very excited and looking forward to the hike. Keke… We are searching for those pamphlets wif maps printed. But can’t find any. So, we follow our instinct. We actually take the inner route up to the summit, then walk down thru the main road.

The vegetation in the inner route is very dense. So, we feel cooler, yet a little humid. The paths are sumtimes steep, sumtimes full of roots of trees and muddy. We pass by a water catchment area. Water flows from a higher land area to tis catachment area build by bricks. Never ending flow of water. Also, there are some “dungeons” within the forest. Haha… So we joke ard abt phoenixes and dragons hiding in. Crap! We climb up the stairs. To the summit. Somebody lost count in the number of steps in the mid. I guess physical torturing to overcome at tat moment than mental torturing. Hahaha…

Upon reaching the highest point, we decided to take sum photos. I wanted to climb up to a rock to pose. So, I gotta tao jiao the tactics frm a young boy. I ask him “How you climb up tis?” Everyone laugh. I guess I over-stretch my right thigh muscle, getting a bit tearing sensation. Obviously not my pants. Didn’t mange to see any monkey throughout the journey. Sad! (-.- ‘ “) Ended up in Beauty World’s MacDonald for breakfast. And Qin bought a backpack for her trip in the end of the year…

I took an afternoon nap, juz now. Tis is wat I dreamt of:

My click of frendz bought tickets for a movie. Nobody wanted to go. Lester and Jacky doesn’t want to tag along. So left, Serene, Laily and me. While we are thinking how shld we solve the problem of the extra ticket, Blackman say coolly “I’ll go.” Snatching the tickets frm my hand. Serene and Laily took the front seats, while me and Blackman took a row behind them. Veri weird sitting arrangement. We go to a hawker center for lunch. He sits directly opposite me. And he is trying to take his bag or stuff frm me. So… Erm… The rest a bit R(A). Dun say le… Hahaha…

Someone mailed me tis yesterday:


Differences between love and like… …

In front of the person you love, your heart beats faster

But in front of the person you like, you get happy.

In font of the person you love, winter seens like spring

But in front of the person you like, winter is just a beautiful winter.

If you look into the eyes of the one you love, you blush

But in front of the person you like, you can.

In front of the person you love, you tend to get shy

But in front of the person you like, you can show your own self.

The person you love comes into your mind every 2 minutes.

You can’t look straight into the eyes of the one you love.

But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you like.

When the one you love is crying, you cry with them

But when the one you like is crying, you end up comforting.

The feeling of love starts from the eye

And the feeling of like starts from the ear.

So if you stop liking a person you used to like

All you need to do is cover your ears.

But if try to close your eyes

Love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever after… …

Veri meaningful…

Yesterday me, qin and serene went to gym to do some workout. Whoa… A lot of army guys… But heck! Who cares… So after everything, we measure our height and weight. I grow taller by approximately 2cm. So, i’m officially 160cm. Yippee… But i put on 5kg. Guess all the fats goes to my buttock and leg… Sad…

Met my frend online (u noe who)… Chatted wif a grp initially… But ended quite quickly. And met another one online… He kinda haf DEPRESSION… Hmm… Since you dun feel comfortable telling me, and you say it’s beyond both you and my abilities to do anything… I can onli wish you the best… Hope you get well (emotionally well). I need someone like u to brighten up my days… (u.u) I believe there are a lot of channels to relieve watever you wan. Jus tat you need the right time, the right person, the right place, the right atmosphere and the right feelings to spill out all these. And i guess you need a pair of listening ears… I’m here for u! Always… Sweet hor? (u.u) I maybe naive. But naive ppl leads a simpler life… I veri easy one. Food + Water + Sunlight + Shelter + Showers of luv + Frendz + Entertainment + Sleep*4 – Overweight = Enough!

Ok… Situation in school is pretty bad… Well… A blog is for ppl to see. This part i agree. U can’t stop anyone frm viewing ur blog. But as for commenting online, i still tink it the same as you talk when you see each other face to face. Erm… Written words can easily lead to misunderstanding. You won’t noe the person’s tone well enough, unless he / she says “xxx yyy eee!” (this is happy mood), specifying the mood at the end of each sentence. Everyone is sensitive at tis moment. We are stress by the dateline. Blog maybe a medium to let out of wateva heck we want. But… Both the author and the visitors should play certain part of their responsibilities. Wat ever said is meant to be see. It’s not kao pei or wat…

Lastly… Lead a cheerful life…

Ok… After cooling myself down for quite a moment, I’m able to put my thoughts properly into my blog.

I thought today will be the usual boring days tat I haf. It is, for the first part of my day. Burying my head behind the computer, I am doing the f***king textures for my knight. I have been working these for days. Juz find tat I dun get the design out. Everything looks sucky and yucky… Hubertus meet us again. He didn’t say much but keep reminding us about the time we haf left. Kinda stress.

I’m suffering from this “DEPRESSION” thingy. It juz cum into my day at any moment, some more for no reason. I dun feel like talking, dun feel like eating, start to be kinda guai lan to my frendz, and the bo chap attitude… Hahahaha… Next time anyone find such syndromes appearing, juz heck care me.

Luckily I chase Laily home early today. I met ZX at the dover bus-stop. Laily frightens me by saying “Your frend is behind.”, in chinese. I’m still wondering, who’s my frend? I thought is Blackman. I quickly turn my head to the back. So astonished and amazed to see ZX standing right behind of me. (Erm… Laily! Wat do we last mention abt before you saw my frend?)

The first thing he says is “I thought you won’t be turning your head around.” He has frightened me… Today’s timing is juz right… After a few seconds, Laily’s bus arrive. So… Bye bye, Laily! He sits down beside me and kinda chat a little. A bit sit too close le. I scare lah…

His bus arrive too! Of course must take opportunity right? Me not ben dan lor… So I say “WE take 105. I can change bus to either 176 or 188 later.” We quickly hop in and settle down with a seat. Erm… Again… Still sitting too close, so I shifted a little out. But my buttock moves, not my shoulder. So our shoulders is still intact wif each other. He is the onli one who never fails to make my body not leaving him. This is his way of “COMMUNICATION SKILL”… We chatted quite a bit, there are some silent moments. Throughout these silent moments, my mind keeps thinking “Wat to say?! Wat to say?!” It’s kinda of mental block.

1 hr wif someone u dun like, u feel tat tis is long. 1 hr wif someone u like, god… It’s like seconds… Today’s journey back home seems super super super fast. I am breathing hard in the bus becoz my heart goes “Thub! Thub! Thub!” At least pumping 10 times faster than usual.

The more he gets intimate, the more I’m afraid… Sometimes he leans very close to me. Sometimes he speaks into my ear. Sometimes he plays wif my hands. Sometimes his head tilts towards me, acting cute. Sometimes he sits so close tat I can hardly move. (I dun feel like moving oso… =p) Then my heart pumps faster, then I start to breathe harder, then my face turns red, then I jiao ruan (leg numb), then the whole cycle repeats… Too much of a body contact isn’t tat good, yar?

He points our conversation topic to me. All about me… Wat am I doing nowadays? When am I graduating? Wat area am I advancing in? Will I continue further study? About the national day thing? About our schoolmate, Jun Tian. About why he isn’t bringing his jacket? A lot…

I’m still thinking hard where I should alight? I jus dun feel like leaving him so fast, so I accompanied him to where he alighted. I still act blur, saying “A… U stop here ah? U need to cross road one meh?” I noe all the answers, but I still ask.

My effort ain’t wasted. He promises to accompany me till my bus arrive. I gan jiong lah… Knock into a pole when I wanna talk to him. Tat makes him laugh… Stupid! My bus finally arrive, but I dun feel like leaving. I say bye bye le, but he says “Kan ni shang che xian” (Wait till u board the bus, then I leave). So sweet… He stand there till my bus drives off. He always melts me with all these sweet talk and sweet actions…

My heart still goes “Thub! Thub! Thub!” when I’m typing tis… Dunno will take how long to forget. Tonite cannot sleep well le lah… I’m toking loud and big in front of Laily. But the veri next moment, I becum veri shy… I dun dare to look into his eyes… Ai ya… Die! Die! Die!

But hor… I like him leh… How huh? I tink he is the one, without fail one, tat makes me so shy, makes my heart beats faster than usual… WITHOUT FAIL… Die lah! Die lah! Die lah!

Back in school today… Feeling so much better. But kinda drain and lack of sleep. I was doing some modification to the FYP’s website background yeaterday. Ancient and antique feel is hard to achieve (at least this is what i feel). I’m better in modern modern look. Arghhh… But all these are excuses for not cuming out wif good design.

Spend some time online yesterday… Met the usual selves. Crap here and there… My younger sister needed sum help for her chinese zao ju . Hmm… Gotta start my engine first. There are altogether 3 qns tat she had faced problems with. My dad was a fool. He keep nagging and say all the you de mei de, forming all those weird weird zao ju tat makes no sense. Crap! Manage to solve 2. Onli the last qn gave me a tough time. No matter how i form wif those helping words, it jus sounds weird. And there is this verb which seems veri extra. I just can’t form a complete and correct sentence wif all the words given.

So i approach my sec sch classmate for help. Spending quite a lot of time to type the han yu pin ying in my mobile and send them to this “genius”. So this “genius” is pretty lazy oso. He didn’t type the answer in his mobile, but went on calling me.

Alright! I admit sometimes i’m a bit SLOW…. A little bit NOT FLEXIBLE IN THE BRAIN. Then the answer is like… WHA… SO EASY…. Damn… I need to polish up my chinese le. Haven been writing a lot in chinese ever since i graduate.

PS: Sister! You dun ask me so many of ur homework lah… I graduated long ago… (u.u)

I’m ain’t feeling better today… Terribly bad. So i decided to skip my school today… Before i continue any stuff, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNY…

Ok… Yar… I skip school todae. I noe my mates are rushing for the FYP and i’m not there… Pai seh… Haf been checking on my frendz blog, and onli a kind soul mention my early dismissal frm the saturday activity. Tat’s u… Bong! Kekeke…

Well… Seems tat u guys didn’t do anything constructive, yar? Hahahaha… Bong says:”Xiang said not feeling well, dunno is the topic bout ur blackman juz now one of the reason tat u feel so sian?” Hmm… i guess u receive a very reasonable reply from me in ur blog. But i think, partially is also becoz of the change of plan. There isn’t anything we can do in Chan’s hse for the long nite. Different ppl will be doing different stuff, so ultimately no point to stay over. And JS huh… Play game! Play game! I’m jus afraid tat we will get too noisy.

Wanted a cozier chat wif all u guys on saturday. But the first half of the time, the grp is too big to actually say things tat everyone wish to hear abt. And the second half of the time, many are already like dead corpses, getting tired. Sigh…