Ok… After cooling myself down for quite a moment, I’m able to put my thoughts properly into my blog.

I thought today will be the usual boring days tat I haf. It is, for the first part of my day. Burying my head behind the computer, I am doing the f***king textures for my knight. I have been working these for days. Juz find tat I dun get the design out. Everything looks sucky and yucky… Hubertus meet us again. He didn’t say much but keep reminding us about the time we haf left. Kinda stress.

I’m suffering from this “DEPRESSION” thingy. It juz cum into my day at any moment, some more for no reason. I dun feel like talking, dun feel like eating, start to be kinda guai lan to my frendz, and the bo chap attitude… Hahahaha… Next time anyone find such syndromes appearing, juz heck care me.

Luckily I chase Laily home early today. I met ZX at the dover bus-stop. Laily frightens me by saying “Your frend is behind.”, in chinese. I’m still wondering, who’s my frend? I thought is Blackman. I quickly turn my head to the back. So astonished and amazed to see ZX standing right behind of me. (Erm… Laily! Wat do we last mention abt before you saw my frend?)

The first thing he says is “I thought you won’t be turning your head around.” He has frightened me… Today’s timing is juz right… After a few seconds, Laily’s bus arrive. So… Bye bye, Laily! He sits down beside me and kinda chat a little. A bit sit too close le. I scare lah…

His bus arrive too! Of course must take opportunity right? Me not ben dan lor… So I say “WE take 105. I can change bus to either 176 or 188 later.” We quickly hop in and settle down with a seat. Erm… Again… Still sitting too close, so I shifted a little out. But my buttock moves, not my shoulder. So our shoulders is still intact wif each other. He is the onli one who never fails to make my body not leaving him. This is his way of “COMMUNICATION SKILL”… We chatted quite a bit, there are some silent moments. Throughout these silent moments, my mind keeps thinking “Wat to say?! Wat to say?!” It’s kinda of mental block.

1 hr wif someone u dun like, u feel tat tis is long. 1 hr wif someone u like, god… It’s like seconds… Today’s journey back home seems super super super fast. I am breathing hard in the bus becoz my heart goes “Thub! Thub! Thub!” At least pumping 10 times faster than usual.

The more he gets intimate, the more I’m afraid… Sometimes he leans very close to me. Sometimes he speaks into my ear. Sometimes he plays wif my hands. Sometimes his head tilts towards me, acting cute. Sometimes he sits so close tat I can hardly move. (I dun feel like moving oso… =p) Then my heart pumps faster, then I start to breathe harder, then my face turns red, then I jiao ruan (leg numb), then the whole cycle repeats… Too much of a body contact isn’t tat good, yar?

He points our conversation topic to me. All about me… Wat am I doing nowadays? When am I graduating? Wat area am I advancing in? Will I continue further study? About the national day thing? About our schoolmate, Jun Tian. About why he isn’t bringing his jacket? A lot…

I’m still thinking hard where I should alight? I jus dun feel like leaving him so fast, so I accompanied him to where he alighted. I still act blur, saying “A… U stop here ah? U need to cross road one meh?” I noe all the answers, but I still ask.

My effort ain’t wasted. He promises to accompany me till my bus arrive. I gan jiong lah… Knock into a pole when I wanna talk to him. Tat makes him laugh… Stupid! My bus finally arrive, but I dun feel like leaving. I say bye bye le, but he says “Kan ni shang che xian” (Wait till u board the bus, then I leave). So sweet… He stand there till my bus drives off. He always melts me with all these sweet talk and sweet actions…

My heart still goes “Thub! Thub! Thub!” when I’m typing tis… Dunno will take how long to forget. Tonite cannot sleep well le lah… I’m toking loud and big in front of Laily. But the veri next moment, I becum veri shy… I dun dare to look into his eyes… Ai ya… Die! Die! Die!

But hor… I like him leh… How huh? I tink he is the one, without fail one, tat makes me so shy, makes my heart beats faster than usual… WITHOUT FAIL… Die lah! Die lah! Die lah!

Back in school today… Feeling so much better. But kinda drain and lack of sleep. I was doing some modification to the FYP’s website background yeaterday. Ancient and antique feel is hard to achieve (at least this is what i feel). I’m better in modern modern look. Arghhh… But all these are excuses for not cuming out wif good design.

Spend some time online yesterday… Met the usual selves. Crap here and there… My younger sister needed sum help for her chinese zao ju . Hmm… Gotta start my engine first. There are altogether 3 qns tat she had faced problems with. My dad was a fool. He keep nagging and say all the you de mei de, forming all those weird weird zao ju tat makes no sense. Crap! Manage to solve 2. Onli the last qn gave me a tough time. No matter how i form wif those helping words, it jus sounds weird. And there is this verb which seems veri extra. I just can’t form a complete and correct sentence wif all the words given.

So i approach my sec sch classmate for help. Spending quite a lot of time to type the han yu pin ying in my mobile and send them to this “genius”. So this “genius” is pretty lazy oso. He didn’t type the answer in his mobile, but went on calling me.

Alright! I admit sometimes i’m a bit SLOW…. A little bit NOT FLEXIBLE IN THE BRAIN. Then the answer is like… WHA… SO EASY…. Damn… I need to polish up my chinese le. Haven been writing a lot in chinese ever since i graduate.

PS: Sister! You dun ask me so many of ur homework lah… I graduated long ago… (u.u)

I’m ain’t feeling better today… Terribly bad. So i decided to skip my school today… Before i continue any stuff, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNY…

Ok… Yar… I skip school todae. I noe my mates are rushing for the FYP and i’m not there… Pai seh… Haf been checking on my frendz blog, and onli a kind soul mention my early dismissal frm the saturday activity. Tat’s u… Bong! Kekeke…

Well… Seems tat u guys didn’t do anything constructive, yar? Hahahaha… Bong says:”Xiang said not feeling well, dunno is the topic bout ur blackman juz now one of the reason tat u feel so sian?” Hmm… i guess u receive a very reasonable reply from me in ur blog. But i think, partially is also becoz of the change of plan. There isn’t anything we can do in Chan’s hse for the long nite. Different ppl will be doing different stuff, so ultimately no point to stay over. And JS huh… Play game! Play game! I’m jus afraid tat we will get too noisy.

Wanted a cozier chat wif all u guys on saturday. But the first half of the time, the grp is too big to actually say things tat everyone wish to hear abt. And the second half of the time, many are already like dead corpses, getting tired. Sigh…

Happy 19th Birthday, Johnson. We celebrated his birthday at Park Mall Glass House Fish & Co. Hmm… Very romantic atmosphere. But crowded too. We are lead to the seatings at the 2nd floor. There are comfortable soft leather crouches for people to enjoy their drinks. And of course, we ordered fish related dishes. I order the TERIYAKI SALMON. The teriyaki sauce is nice. But juz like the other time i tried the rice, it tastes a little bitter. Dunno why.

Wanted to sabotage Johnson. Calvin has suggested a very interesting idea. It goes like this: Johnson as the birthday boy, has to go round to every table in the 2nd level and tell them tat today is his birthday. Then, when he counts, 1 2 3, all the people shall congrate him by saying: “HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY, JOHNSON!” Becoz of the time constraint, instead of going around to every table, i suggested him to approach the kitchen staff. And ask them to congrate him instead. But he isn’t tat sporty enough. Sad….

Next stop, we go to the esplande. There is this small music performance in the opened ampitheatre. We take a short rest there and enjoy the music. Cool performance. I have always wanted to sit down to watch some performances. But most of the time, my frendz prefer to chat at a corner. So… I go for the majority. Yesterday is a nice experience. Then we move inwards to the beach area. Erm… Too many couples. I hope we are not making too much noise. Kekeke… We lighted sparkles in the esplande compound. Ganna warn by the police. But tat’s a little twist to our lined-up program.

To keep ourself out of trouble, we go to the Queen Elizabeth Walk to play our sparkles. Kian is busying thinking how to make a heart shape sparkle. Erm… He fails quite a number of times. Left the last location at 11plus. Some headed home, while the rest headed to Lester Chan’s house.

Gotta apologise for the sudden back out of staying out wif the rest of the click. I haf a terrible stomaches. Dunno wat i eat wrongly. Pengzzz…

Rest of the story, i tink i shall refer to others’ blog to find out… (u.U)

Well… I have veri little insight stories for u guys today… Kinda moody. Kinda sian. I wake up late in the morning. And so, i have to take train to school. Today is juz not my day.

Didn’t do much coding for my jspg practical, becoz i’m too engross in checkin others’ life in the other blogs. Veri busy. Commented a lot of stuff, critisizes and a little teasing here and there. So today, is frends’ day… Yippeee…

I still didn’t get this word rite >> is it PRONO or PORN??? I’m juz not good at this area huh. Enlighten me, somebody…

Soooo… Today’s topic is about gal, guy and relationship…

1) How many think that guys/ gals are slightly slower in catching hints?

2) How many think that guys/ gals like to pretend as they dunno a single crap? [KEYWORD: PRETEND]

3) How many finds it alright for gal to chase after guy?

4) Let’s say everyone is single. Love is a very free issue. How many will jio ur pri sch or sec sch frend as steady now? Will you mind that both of u all go ‘pah tor’, then last time those classmates saw both of u, then they tease at u?

I have a sleepless nite yesterday. Dun really noe wat time I fall asleep. But I remember my last read of time is around 4am… So I cannot wake up in the morning to meet my frends for lunch. Sorry pals…

Have been tossing and turning in my bed for quite suntime. Well… Aircon is cold enough, I’m not too full nor too hungry, didn’t watch any horror movie before I turn in… So why am I not sleeping??? Maybe I sleep too much in the day… Hahaha…

Today’s lesson is onli FYP period. Well… It’s like I haven been seeing my grp mates for ages. Miss them yor… So I play ard with them and other schoolmates lor. Today is more like an interactive session than a work doing session. And we are told to join an entrepreneur competition. Wow…

Me, Lester, Jacky, Qin are discussing a lot of matters. Like sleeping issues, how to commit suicide in the fastest and painless way, and something about the asteroid hitting the earth in year 2014.

After school, me, Jacky and Lester go to Marina Square to shop for present. Someone’s birthday is ard the corner. Hahaha… I crap around with them about the clothing Jacky choose. Well… Jacky finds tat some of the shirts are quite transparent. So I tell Lester that semi – transparent looks sexier. Hahahaha… Then we laugh at the fitting room at marina square (crocodile shop). The fitting room has a very unique design. The door is made up of frosted glass. But I find it weird to see shadows forming on the door when someone is changing. Opps… I’m not horny… Jus a little humor to go for my day.

Stupid! I was cheated by somebody… I admire intelligent people. But i hate being cheated by intelligent people. I need something to cover myself up. How would i noe, we onli haf 16 guys in the class. And how would i noe i haf happily named the 8 who attend the bbq and u gif me another 6 names who is not in the list. And tat left 2 of u in the choice. Crap… I HATE YOU…

Not as bad as i predicted for my ACAN test. Alright lor… But i was shocked to read that: “YOU MAY NEED TO CREATE POINT HELPER AND IK CHAIN”. Laily and me open our mouths big, staring at each other. Hmm… Laily complains about the seat i chose. Well… Jus becoz the com beside her is spoilt. And juz in case anything happens, she has another com to ‘REFER’ to. Hahaha… Ppl out there, dun be mislead by her ‘INNOCENT’ look. Kekeke…

Didn’t join the rest for the movie, got something on actually. Hmm… So i ask my dad to fetch me home first, coz i’m still early. On the way back, we go to clementi central to eat tang yuan. Veri full lor. Then, my dad happens to meet 3 of his friends. All dun recognise me. All of them commented “Who’s child is this? Eldest ah??? Whoa! Last time onli baby, i still carry her, now so big le… Wat she is doing huh???” Hahaha… Juz like the feelings of being ‘small’ in front of those elders.

Hmm… Didn’t do anything constructive either. After meeting my friends, i cum back home immediately. Sian… Actually i’m back home pretty early. The ‘Z – Monster’ (…zzzZZZ monster) has been calling for me the whole day. And i cannot tahan le. So… Fall asleep silently and peacefully in my bed until 9pm. Then being dragged out of my bed by my dad. He dun let me slp. (T.T)

I’ve been ignoring sumbody for ard 1 weeks or so. Juz becoz he is playing shi zong you xi with me. I dun like the feeling of being treated invisible, and others juz disappear like nobody business. Finally received a email few days ago. Thinking not to forward any more mails, not to send him any more sweet goodnite msg. But i juz can’t stop myself from pressing the FORWARD button, then add in his email address. I tink i’m juz mei you yong! (T.T) (-.-‘ “)

Finally do away my banner thing in the blogger. The whole thing looks nicer. Hmm… Need help here! How to do away with my left right scrolling of my iframe??? Haizzz….

Jus finished my JSPG test, a few minutes ago. Yar… A FEW MINUTES AGO. I still in school lor. Tml got ACAN test. Sian… Nt veri confident for JSPG, but on the other hand, confident also. Certain parts confident lor…

Study until 5am plus this morning becoz i slack. Another interesting day past. Got a box of mooncakes from my uncle. Surpurise to find out my dog eats the fillings. Keke… So share with him lor. Yar… My dad bought a hokkien cd. Nice nice. All drama’s songs. So listen to it throughout my study hours. Even until today morning. Hahaha…

Dunno how it is like for tml ACAN test. Getting a little worried. Heard that we gotta animate bones ah? We haf been using biped (character studio), forgot about watever manual thing lor. Kekeke…

My day has jus started… So nothing much to comment…

Good day, again! (u.u)

Hi! Hi! Officially launched my webbie yesterday. So great to hear so many “souls” replying. Hahaha… Sob! Sob!

Hmm… Wake up quite late today, around 12 plus. Yawn… Still sleepy. Ate 2 packets of instant noodles coz my mum isn’t cooking anything. Suppose to start my study yesterday. But seems like i have done nothing constructive. I will biang for the following day…

Met 3 frends online yesterday. Well… Chatted longest with Wei Jyh. Too much crap to go. Then someone who surprises me is Chen Hui. Nice to hear from him. You have disappeared for quite a long time. Yar? Miss you lor… Mei says ur leg still aches a little every now and then. So hope you recover soon. But you dun run here and there oso. Stay at home lor…

Btw, how’s u guys AAUP test today??? Difficult anot???

Me may add another page to my photos. But… Need to give me some time. When school starts, i will be concentrating on FYP – final year project. Guess everyone will be the same. So… May not have time engage in doing my webbie. And and… Need some contributions of photographs taken from u guys oso. =p

Thought i will be writing something short. But ended up in big chunks of text oso. No matter wat. Good day to everyone…

Finally! I can update my stuff. These few days i cannot log in to my account. Got some tomcat problem, then dunno wat null pointer exception and stuff. Haiz…

Okay! I shall begin with my acan animation. I have finally complete this assignment le. Phew! Wat a relieve leh… Then, friday we go bbqing at ECP. Hmm… With unusual gang oso. Hahaha… Generally fun! I like it lor. Sometime you just need to give urself a space and entertainment to relieve all ur stress. It still not too late for me to ling wu this point, rite???

Me Jacky, Serene, Laily and Jean reach ECP at around 7pm. Pretty late sial. Manage to eat quite a bit. Full lor! Hey, calling out to charlene! Take care, gal. U look veri sick the other day. a bit nan shou rite??? Take care lor… We play the “Indian Poker” and the forfeit is to play “True or Dare”. Got quite a lot of secrets digged out. But we promise everything said will be kept within the day, the people, that location. Hahaha…. So no worries pals! But me quite heng one. Everytime play this kind of stuff, won’t ganna me one lor. Hee… Not boasting lah!

Left ECP at quite a late hour. Sob! Sob! Therefore we missed our last bus, our last train. Sad! Kekeke… But neber mind! We still manage to reach home safe and sound. And thank you for Elaine’s offer also. Gotta quite a lot of stuff cleared out when me, serene, laily and elaine are in the cab. Hmm… We noe bits and stuff. But this time round, everything is cleared out. Juz trying to show concern to the person we should. Hope this isn’t KPO. To round up, i wouldn’t comment much about who’s rite and who’s wrong. Everyone has their individual thoughts. I’m sure, they noe wat they are doing. Blessing to everybody. Sincere one!

Hmm… Met Wei Jyh online on thursday. Crap a bit lor. I give him my blog address. For him to check out my life. Good friend hor??? But hor! Can you dun always “pick on” me??? You noe i’m always full of error and typos and spelling mistakes and sentence structure… Tian shen de. No choice! But bear with me. So… This dumb here wanted to see my acan animation. I uploaded it to my site. But later he found out that my animation is onli 10 seconds. Hahaha…

And i met him again on MSN chat. Strange indeed! His nick changes from MASTER SLACKER to BAD FEELING. Ask him why, he dun say. Uncle! Dun keep too many stuff to urself. I dun wan to visit you in “Hougang Chalet”. Seriously saying. To me, you may have the bo charp attitude. But sometime you will just leak out the worried feelings and you will start to be more serious than usual days. Didn’t discover rite? Me observant lor. Hahaha… Just my personal thoughts. I noe you wouldn’t agree with me. At least, most of the time you dun…

The next few days shall be my busy days for exam. So far onli 2 exams: JSPG and ACAN. Should have no problem one. Ermm… That’s all for today. I’m editing some stuff for my web now. So wait for my webby. Cheers…