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Can’t really recall anything in secondary school. I usually forget when i pass and promote to another stage of my education. Until someone wrote this in his blog:

” hav to thank my friends too then..

weijie n dinglun..for helping my maths in my sucky maths days…

layhiang n gl…for being so gd in chinese…u two were my motivations..cos i was adamant to be better than u all…i wan to be praised..thr’s this once when we got back our chinese essay..i wrote sth diff…which i tot will bring mi to e top of the chinese greats in hks..(hehe..) then i lost to lh..why?? cos wang lao shi doesnt know whether it’s creative or out of pt..haha…i tot i was quite good…hehe…”

I’m always proud of my achievements in Chinese, since primary school. But the feeling isn’t that strong, until we are ranked in secondary school. One thing about my primary school, we don’t have any ranking system. Therefore, once you slide from the chart, you will feel rather demoralize. But I have Wei Jyh and Geok Leng to be my strongest competitors in the class. That were the days. Hahaha~

I will use naïve and boring for sec 1, enriching and competitive for sec 2, struggling for sec 3, hardship and tolerance for sec 4. Hai… My grades deteriorates after sec 2. From top 3 class ranking in lower secondary to top 20 in upper secondary. By then, I dun bother to climb any higher. And I flunk my geography at prelim, therefore, I can’t get into the first 3 months in JC. And maths, it’s so so so disappointing. Really dun understand what’s bothering me at that stage. I only regretted on these 2 subjects. I should have worked harder on it.

That were the school days.

[P/S: Wei Jyh, you wanna try recalling more incidents that happen within our class? Rrefresh my memory please~ I always like you talk about me, the class and me and the class and me. Hahaha~]

Last saturday morning, Lester and me went to eat bak ku teh at Anson Road. The uncle is polite, keeps refilling the soup for us. Yum yum~ It will be shifting inwards within this and next month.

We had the poly gang meet-up in the afternoon through the nite. Jackey, Johnson, Lester, Laily, Geargina, Suqin and me all turned up. This could be the very last time we had our steamboat at Laily’s Bukit Panjang resident, before she moves to somewhere else. Started shopping around 4pm, food preparation till 7pm and steamboat till 11pm. We are too concentrating on the grilling and practically ignored the soup. Johnson got himself so tanned because of his parade, and we laughed at his “shades of skin tones”. Good times are really short. Looking forward to the next meet-up again, and perhaps something special. Heez~

Read an email regarding storage upgrade. Hotmail will increase the account size from 2 MB to 250 MB, and increase the attachment size from 1 MB to 10 MB, at no cost. It will automatically be upgraded by August. Hooray~

I get really pissed off when my colleague paste memo pads on my computer screen, inside my drawer, on my keyboard or on some documents and put them in my in-tray. At times, i received her emails instead. And all these will spoilt my mood for the day.

Is it me or is she being rude?

I can’t deny, the feeling of being rebellious is there. Just like Lester who likes to ask me to get my bum off the seat and get things done quickly, the more he does so, the more i want to sit in front of my TV and do things as slow as possible. And my dad, the more he wants to wake me up from the bed, the more i want to sleep and toss around on my bed.

My mood is a determine factor for tasks to be accomplished. I believe all these “pushing factors” will affect the nature of myself. So, to reverse such process, i’ve gotta do the way i want the things to be done right? Selfish, i know~ The feeling of being pushed and pressuried is no good.

I’ve got a scolding by my dad because of a STUPID AUNTIE!!! I have enough nonsense in the office, and i always think my very own home is the best hideout. But instead, i get more nonsense.

The amount of hatred, impatience, dissatisfaction, irritation, anger and sadness has piled up both from work and from home. It may sound exaggerating but I hate every single thing around me. I dun care whether is it selfish to put myself in the first place, but I need all attentions desperately.

Can you guys please pay attention to what I say? Can you guys please understand how I feel? Can you guys please think what I think?

Get to know coroflot since poly times. It’s something like an online portfolio and job agents together in one. I’ve have created my account years back, but it’s an empty shell till now. Here’s my account. Still quite empty though, i’ve been figuring what to put in. Nothing special, nothing i’m proud of and say “This one is nice”. Getting worried how far have i been building my portfolio.

Yesterday Lester’s mum touched down Singapore from Japan. The families were there to fetch them. Received this cute panda puppet that goes ‘meh~’. And my doggy has been eyeing it. I mean eyeing to be his toy. Hahaha~

It’s another long weekend, Vesake Day. Was busy for the week. Wednesday had a last minute call-up by Bong to meet Robert. He will be leaving us on the friday to Brunei for a year. Take care pal. Thursday and Friday are havoctic. Guests from Thailand and Hong Kong came to our office to learn some accounting softwares. Man~ I fall asleep in their lesson. But i was given good food at the last day, Lei Garden at CHIJMES. Heez~

Lester booked out on Saturday morning. We went breakfast at Tanglin Halt. Dinner time to Suntec and catch Star Wars Episode III. Bump into Bernard and his gf. It was kinda funny, i stared at him when i saw him, never even say a “hi”. Too shou liao~ But his gf looks fierce sial. Opps~ We almost can’t find the car in Marina. A lot of changes…

I’m not a fanatic fans of Star Wars series and dun understand a single heck about it. Initial impression is something like Matrix, need to think and think and think. Therefore, i’m so reluctant to catch it. Come to think of it, it was a pretty straight forward movie. Just that they screened Episode 4, 5, 6 then 1, 2, 3. Interesting~ And i like Master Yoda. “Very cute, he is.”

Sunday meet up with Chen Hui and Yi Mei. We had steamboat at Marina. The usual crap and gossips, complaining about our work and SAF. Talk about a few of the juniors we usually met: Pearline, Dawn, Gean, Angeline, Benedict. Another kopi session at West Coast MacDonald. Unbelieveable, another 3 months had passed. Took some photos with them, will post them up when they send me. Hahaha~ Chen Hui will be leaving to Taiwan for his SISPEC training. Take care pal~

Lester has extracted my blog’s content and fit them into his blog template. Feel free to use that to browse as well, www.lesterchan.net/layhiang.

And Joseph just sang suddenly at the staircase. All of us laughed. Hahaha~

琥珀色黄昏像糖在很美的远方
你的脸没有化装我却疯狂爱上
思念跟影子在傍晚一起被拉长
我手中那入场圈陪我数羊

薄荷色草地芬芳像风没有形状
我却能够牢记你的气质跟脸庞
冷空气跟琉璃在清晨很有透明感
像我的喜欢被你看穿

摊位上一朵艳阳
我悄悄出现你身旁
你慌乱的模样
我微笑安静欣赏

[Chorus]
我顶着大太阳
只想为你撑伞
你靠在我肩膀深呼吸怕遗忘
因为捞鱼的蠢游戏我们开始交谈
多希望话题不断园游会永不打烊

气球在我手上
我牵着你瞎逛
有话想对你讲你眼睛却装盲
连蛋糕跟你嘴角果酱我都想要尝
园游会影片在播放这个世界约好一起逛

Love melts all hearts~

Younger generation: I tell you also dunno one lah~
Older generation: You never even try to tell me, how am i going to understand?

Sounds familiar?

Generation gap has always been a problem. It has been there all the time, from your family to your elder colleagues in the office. Inevitably, communication will break down at some parts, messages are not well brought across.

People at my generation dun like to talk things out, everything keep within themselves. However, we are brought up in a way, knowing that talking may not change any situation, talking too much may cause flares and tensions between 2 parties. So we choose to bury things underneath, and always say “wo de ming hao ku” (my life is miserable). Hahaha~

We always think the elders are so inflexible, like that means like that. However, we are constantly looking for an efficient route. What I think? These are improvements. What they thought? We have not work the hard way through, therefore we dun understand the rationale behind all these “inefficiency”.

Sometimes, we are classified as reckless or impulsive while the elders are very cautious. Seriously, we are more adventurous. It’s okay to reach the dead end after much effort but somehow just can’t tolerate cautiousness. On the other hand, the elders have been through it, they could be kind enuff, volunteering to share their experience so we won’t waste our time. But we insisted “Try! Try Try!”

Perhaps the old beliefs of being kind, being courteous, what’s family values still remain. But the complications of the world and the advance in technology drift people apart and make people think that the road is not always straight and left right turns. Just like me, not that i dun voice up my views and emotions. But i no longer need to talk to a physical person, instead, the technology does the saying for me… …

Hard work never killed anybody but why take a chance on being the first?

There are a lot of ways to manage your work stress, one of them is to try and leave at a reasonable hour and not feel guilty about it. The other is to not sweat too much over details that you can’t control.

Burnout is excessive mental or emotional exhaustion on the job, resulting in an inablility to do tasks you were once competent at. Burnout is a warning signal. If left unheeded and unchecked, it could lead to serious depression or anxiety.

The warning signs of a crisis:

• Getting sick more frequently. Illnesses that are common in this instance include headaches, peptic ulcers, irritable bowel syndrome, diarrhea, common cold and heart palpitations
• Feeling sad
• Smoking and drinking more than usual
• Loss of appetite
• Sleeplessness
• Fatigue
• Sexual problems
• Easily irritable
• Loss of confidence
• Becoming cynical
• Feeling of self-doubt
• Lack of motivation, new ideas

“We should not look at burnout as personal weakness,” says Prof Fones. “It is the collective responsibility of the individual, the company and society. It is not really anybody’s fault.” He also added, perfectionists and people with high expectations are more prone to burnout. So are Mr Nice Guy types who do not know how to say “no” and end up taking on too many tasks.

Working women are more likely to suffer from depression and anxiety than men. This could be due to their bearing a greater load both at home and at work.