Still remember it is onli 1 blog entry away, telling you guys how xin fu i am.

I am terribly miserable now…

I’m suffering…

To someone who will never noe this place:

Do you noe how many times haf i shed my tears for u?

I bet u dun…

Bubbly me, am a very emotional ger.

Ur care, ur love, ur sweetness has brought me misery.

Do i haf a stand in ur heart?

I always wanted to ask u tis…

I demand an answer frm u,

But i dunno how to request it frm u…

U make me feel being love and care,

Live in the happiness u brought to me…

After all,

It’s a period of worries,

A period of bu an…

I dun trust u…

If u gotta leave my sight for too long,

I will go wild…

Crazily seraching for ur trails,

Afraid tat u will be taken away.

All ur promise doesn’t mean a thing…

No promises within us…

And i mean us…

I’m a bit lazy to blog abt wat i did the whole day.

But i attempted a fortune-telling thing. This is the result:

你是個行事獨特,不論穿著打扮或喜好都不喜歡跟別人一樣的人~你的裝扮跟行為舉動都有你自己特色,形象鮮明,常是眾人矚目的焦點,對自己很有自信!你也是朋友中的開心果,常語出驚人,帶給週遭的朋友歡樂!不過當眾人的眼光集中在你身上時,反而會覺得不好意思,只好傻笑以對~

*要小心別自信過頭喔~因為跟你不熟的人可能會把你的自信當臭屁,認為你實在是太屌了

平常一向冷靜理性的你,一旦遇到感情事就會亂了陣腳。雖然嘴巴比較毒,外表比較冷,但只要遇到感覺對的,你內在的熱情,和對情人的依賴、佔有慾就全部顯現出來了!可說是標準的悶騷族!你也是很相信感覺的族群,生水燒久變熱水,日久生情是不可能的。對於感情也喜歡乾脆,不喜歡不清不楚的曖昧關係。跟你談戀愛就像吃麻辣鍋,吃的時後很過癮,但吃完…就痛苦囉~

*要提醒你的是:偶爾悶一悶是可以,但悶太久的話,騷味會很重喔!

你是一個非常懼怕婚姻的人,因為你覺得一旦結婚你就會失去自由。

Wat do you guys see in me? Match anot? Cum cum! Me collect testimonial here oso… Keke…

Finally gt a chance to update what has happened sunday. Well… My friend cum to my hse to style my hair for my presentation. Hee… Room rather pack with 3 person. Veri squeezy… So, he asks me to continue with my stuff, while he take a good look at my hair. Whoa… He takes out his barang – 3 bottles of hair cream and gel… Started to mess up my hair by applying all the stuff and water. Then, Laily is laughing away. She dare not see… Didn’t get my hair done actually. Becoz my hair is a bit thicker and too long to style. Hai… I guess he juz didn’t get my hair style as wat he pictured.

He stay throughout with me and Laily in the room. Giving lots of suggestions, ideas, comments to our design. And of course, surrounding topic about BLACKMAN. I set blackman’s photograph in my desktop. Wha… He says he resembles daniel chan, gt star look. Heez… Getting jealous, i guess… Then Laily gan gan say my guest resembles blackman. But my guest shows a doubtful expression. We tease him tat he may haf a distance relative. Heez… He commented tat blackman is bai chi, xiao bai lian… (-.- ‘ “)

We finished watever we shld and get moving on to the box. He is a quick thinker. Well… He manage to transform my box to the box tat we use for the presentation. Cool engineering guy… Tat’s a great deal he did for me… Really a big favour. Hmm… While cutting up the cardboard, we keep reminding each other to be careful and stuff… Nah… Juz feel kinda sweet. Laily disappears herself into the kitchen for a drink. At this veri moment, i commented tat he is veri DARK. I mean complexion dark. He say something which left me in another difficult situation. He say “Then you prefer white or black?” White == Blackman, Black == Him. I juz shoo him off by saying “Dun ask me all these crap lah…” Really! It embarrases me… I didn’t even dare to lift up my head.

We shifted into the room again for our work. Hmm… Cutting and sticking the box up. My guest says again”Dar! Finish already anot?” Without much thinking, i reply “No” Can you imagine wat he has jus called me? DAR == DARLING. I shy liao… He huh? Cannt make it leh… Dunno wat is bi xian (avoid gossip) one. Luckily, Laily didn’t overhear tis… Phew! Or else she sure laugh one. He veri sweet lor… Massage my neck… Things and stuff… Think Laily really didn’t see all those small little actions happening under the table. Opps! Keke…

See him off to bus stop at ard 6pm. He is going to grandmother hse. Eh… Laily again, ask him out on behalf for me. To watch the matrix thing on 6th… But gott see how. His last paper ends at 6th nov. Then, Laily even suggest to ask Blackman along, then can compare both my guest and Blackman. She ganna shoot back, “Dun need to compare one lor…” Hee…

Tat ends our day.

And i haf finished my fyp! Hooray! (u.u)

Hmm… Rather pack these few days wif lots of assignments dued. Pretty relieve by then.

But left onli FYP. This weekend Laily is cuming over to my hse to rush them out. And i’ll be expecting my surprise guest. A veri surprise and special person. Really dunno wat will happen if my parents saw him. My sister is gonna to tease me, for sure. Hahaha… Hope everything turns out right. And hope my doggie dun chase him ard like a “siao gao”. (-.- ‘ “) Will update you guys again.

This guest will basically teach me how to style my hair lah… Hahaha… I thought he will like fu yan me. But who noe he offers his help. And still gotta cum over to my hse. Erm… Funny…

Then the other nite he gives me a call to my hse. Well… Chatted quite a bit. He juz came back from his football gameplayed. Chat about the look tat i wanna haf for my presentation. I say i’m not veri sure abt how shld i look like, and i mentioned tat i’ll be wearing black. Things and stuff. A short moment of silence slipped into our conversation. So i lower down my pitch and speak a bit softer, “How’s ur life” Wat lau weh! He did tat too… His voice, *ahem*. Charming, deep voice. Cannot tahan…

He asked me quite a number of questions tat left me wif those “erm… eee… ah…” answer. I was juz too nervous lah! He asked: “If ppl were to ask you abt me, wat or how will you relate me to?” Erm… Basically it’s the same as “WAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT ME?!” Phrase until like tat… Of course cannot speak the truth lah… Cannot say, you gentle lah, veri ti tie to me, mouth veri sweet… I juz pops up a veri ridic answer, “Your eyes veri big lah… Fierece looking when u dun tok…” I quickly change topic after tat. Scare of him asking me all those type of qn…

These few days i’m veri busy wif my assignments – ACAN & JSPG. Die… Think cannot finish on time. Hai… And i’m hook by the Frienster thing… Found my long lost frendz. Get to noe more frendz oso. Kekeke… Good channel to stay in contact.

Yesterday, Laily did me a favour. Hahaha… Zi shao wo ping shi mei you bai dang ni shi wo de hao peng you. Really noe wat i want. Kekeke… Ask me personally if you guys wanna noe. Anyway, thanks Laily….

Haf to keep today entry damn short. Lab is closing. This friday JSPG assignment dateline. Next monday ACAN dateline. **Next Tuesday FYP presentation. Gd luck huh!

Hope i still survive by then… If u see me, means u see me… If u dun see me, means u dun see me…

Even though it has been a difference in 2 days when i last blog my entry, but it seems to be like a week ago.

As usual, busy wif my fyp and 2 assignments. Crap… And most of all, me join tat Friendster thing which seems to be veri popular now. Hee… Gotta ard 4 to 5 ppl on my friend list. But hope to hear more frm the others. Keke…

Jus now is really terrifying. Blackman nearly sit beside us. Hai… Wat a waste! He shifted away again. Damn it… If he sit near me, i’ll concentrate on my computer screen one. Really wasted! Nearly… Arghhh…

I haf a thought of stop blogging for a period of time. Well… Basically becoz: (1) i’m veri busy and stress up wif those assignments and fyp, (2) a bit sian wif the outlook of my webby – i’ll revamp tis webby to gif more zest and live and more insights, (3) lastly, i need to sleep!!! I shall see how… Perhaps i will carry on blogging, but will be like not so frequently. I’ll be active again when exam is over. Yipee yaki!!!

Gamerz: Watch Matrix Revolution together hor! First show! 5th Novemeber, 9pm. Dun forget!!!

To all my fellow freindz out there struggling hard: Well… Jus hang on for a while coz the term is ending veri soon. Though we are stress up and busy in different fields and areas, but do remember to take good care of urself.

I fail to wake up on time today again. Get very frustracted wif myself wif tis issue. I haf caused a lot of problems for my parents to wake me up oso.

Tis morning i dreamt of you guys. But i clearly remembered a few. They are Serene, Laily, Lester, Jacky, ZX, Chen Hui, 5566 tat wang ren fu and sun xie zhi… Funny combination! It mus be tat shi zi lu kou tat i haf watched last nite affected me. We shopping wif these 2 celebrities. We are like frendz.

The shop tat we went in is sort of like the FLASH N SPLASH in heeran. They sell items like those sporty shirts and pants, bikinis and necklaces and braclets. Wat I tried on is either a shirt or a dress-like clothing. As for serene, the usual braclets and necklaces. Laily is jus loitering ard in the shop. The other guys are looking at those shirts and pants. ZX tried out a shirt in the dressing room. He opened the door, standing in front of the mirror. His taste is really unusual. Yellow collar tee, the remaining part is hot pink. On his lower right hand corner, the shirt has a MacDonald ‘M’ logo printed on the shirt. I told him tat the shirt is too big for him, but i didn’t mention abt the color. Strange…

In the end, nobody bought anything. Erm… I tink Serene did! She bought a braclet, a wooden beads braclet. She handed it over to me becoz i wanted to take a look. But i accidentally drop it on the floor. Jus before leaving the shop, Serene Found out tat she has lost something. She strongly believe it is within the shop compound. Well… I asked her wat’s tat item. I even asked her to forget about it. She replied:”Tat’s a charm tat i haf prayed for in a temple for Xiang! Veri important one. I haven’t finish putting them together.” A… Seems like my identity in the dream isn’t myself. Hahaha… After thorough searching in the shop, she finally found it in a corner of the shop. The moment she raised up tat charm, i managed to get a glimpse of how it looked like. This charm really cool and modern. It is a metal tube-like thing wif a a few stalks of brown copper-like strands of metal.

Then we ended up in fantasy island in sentosa. A… Dunno y ZX make me veri angry previously, we stand veri apart during the game-playing session. I wanna play the water slide and the obstacles, but the rule there is 2 person a grp. So i’m actually waiting for ZX to approach. But he disappoints me by standing alone there, leg sweeping the pool of water. Instead, i tink Chen Hui approached. So we play the first part of the obstacles. 3/4 of my head is submerged in the water. Dun remember wat the obstacles are. Seems like they are veri dangerous. Therefore, Chen Hui is like big brother, guiding me thru the obstacles. Chen Hui dun allow me to play the second half of the obstacles becoz it it too dangerous. But i sturbornly insisted. In the end, nobody partner me. (T.T) They intend to leave me out…

Didn’t complete the dream becoz my mum wake me up. Arh… …

At tis veri moment, i’m rushing fyp in-game animation wif Laily. Well… A girl in our front row, opposite side com is crying, i guess… Then, sitting beside her is Ahmad… Trying to console her… Juz cannot imagine ppl can break down like tat. First thing tat cum to my mind is she may haf lost her files for the cani assignment. But Laily commented tat she may be too stress up… Hope the gal is fine. (n.n)

Wonder how and wat Ahmad say to the gal. Becoz the gal is lying her head down on the table, head face down while Ahmad is saying something to her. And Ahmad is doing the talking all the while. How to console a person huh? Ppl cry, i oso “tou xiang”. Nah… None of my business… Jus KPO onli…

Yesterday is my veri first NSC proper training. Supposely, we shld haf our test for the third year student. But dunno why camncel. Maybe it is postpone. The first half of the lesson, we went tot the BizIT library to borrow some magazines, communication art related magazine. Didn’t noe there is such a section in the library. We proceed back to the the lab for some practise of drawings using illustrator. We are not allow to scan the material given by the Leon as a template, but gotta look at it and draw. Not too much problem for me. Leon actually yao qu us to be accurate in our drawing and placement of all the lines and shape. So wat he did was, he turned on the outline view and check individual placement of the objects. Nt much o the problem for me… (u.u)

Lester, Jackie, Serene, Johnson and me meet at the auditorium to watch Laily’s performance. Well… The hall is rather pack wif foreign students. So we settled at the seats behind. We shifted again becoz we manage to find an empty row. Phew! Very soon after tat, is Laily’s turn. Kekeke… Speaking the truth, the song is nice. Sweet melody. Veri qin qie

Then we proceed on to Bugis to shop ard and eat. We ate the Mos Burger. Yummy!!! And the auntie there gt attitude problems leh… Face black black one. Someone trys to fool ard wif her. Hahaha… Ganna stare back. Stupid attitude! Ask a lot of things abt Blackman frm the click. Hee… Dun say too much. Or else too obvious. Hahahaha… WE really think he does read our blogs, so… Suddenly miss nerd so gif him a msg. Hahaha… Crap ard until i reach home. Really long time neber msg him liao. Ever since he change his num, i mus refer to my phonebk to msg or call him. Arhh… Sian… Dun bother to memorise nw… I dun bother to memorise anything nw. Heez…

Missed the Arsenal vs Liverpool match. Damn it… The score is 2:1. Keke… No preference in supporting any team, but juz feeling like watching a match. Miss the days we haf World Cup.

My aunt come to my hse today. Long time no see her. I long time neber go visit her. Well… My cousin’s issue is being raised up again. It has been 3 years. Still remember i’m preparing hard for my sec 4 prelim in june period. Everything seems to be like a nightmare. Juz wonder how has she been for the past 3 years. Everyone in the family dreamt of her. Giving birth and you lose ur life… Not worth it. But tis is her fate… (T.T)

2nd October 2003, yesterday is Qin’s 19th birthday. After celebrating birthdays wif 3 of my best frendz, the year is about to end. We are about to part. Sad right?

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO QIN! We celebrated in school during lunch break. Rather quiet celebration. Heez… We are shy lah! Pai seh to sing loud in the foodcourt. Laily spent sometime cooking her barley + green bean soup for Qin. Nice sial… Xiao shu for us… And hope Qin like the presents we haf gave.

Most of us stay in school till 6pm coz Laily haf ACAN. So, Lester book the tickets online. On our way down, I saw Blackman. So i quickly rush my click down. Sob! Sob! “Happen” to meet him. We sort of walk out of the school together. Miss a golden opportunity to ask him out for movie. Becoz i hide behind my click, walking silently beside Qin. Pengz… I get really nervous and hot (body temperature rise lah).

Ended up in Cineleisure for the movie. This year new year time didn’t haf the opportunity to watch wif ZX at Cineleisure. So, yesterday is my first time to Cineleisure. Cozy small atmosphere. We watched 28 Days. Missed 5 minutes of the front part becoz we came in slightly late. The movie is damn disgusting. Not really scary, but got frighten by the sound effects. There are couple of violent scenes, wif blood gushing out, man killing man, the bat hitting the head… The language… Cannot make it lor. All the F**KING words came out. F**K here and there. First time i see a movie wif the actor saying so many F**K words. Damn it… The show really makes me uncomfortable. I ran to the ladies to vomit. Yucks…

Eat Yoshinoya, Salmon bowl for my dinner. Veri nice. Fish is the onli seafood in my menu. Heez… Then, take separate ways home wif some frendz. Tok, chat and gossip abt some stuff. Hahaha… Haf a really good chat wif my mates. U guys rocks!