sleepy's blog – Page 73

I’m back, pals! Have been going for a chalet at Pasir Ris Costa Sand the past 3 days. And now I getting very sleepy… … zzzZZZ

Not much activity on the first day. So all of us turn in early at around 2am. Very surprise to receive phone call from HIM, telling me he is coming for the BBQ. I thought he has forgotten about everything. My immediate response is to rush to the room and tell my frendz about this. Yipee~ By 4am, some donkeys have gotta themselves drunk in other apartment. They sing and shout so loudly in the corridors, waking all up.

Travel back all the way to school for ITP briefing. My frendz have been telling me that I swing my head so vigorously (left to right) that the other travelers sitting beside me, on the train, are like staring at me. Hahaha~ Pai seh…

The ITP briefing is like a waste of time. The lecturer is talking quite a bit of rots here and there. While me, myself prefer the ‘inspiring director’. And our liaison officer, Tim R, has been wasting our time also. He keeps saying about Mediacorp and stuff and FLIRTING as well… Goodness gracious. Last last station is back to Carrefour to make grocery shopping.

Nite time came around, and we gotta our BBQ started real late. We reach the chalet at 7:15pm. Then busily defrosting this and that, cutting meats, washing, starting the fire. My boy arrived at around 7:30pm. Wat lau… I dunno how should I introduce HIM to my frendz and my frendz to HIM. He has been trying to look for Laily the moment he enters. Then he was like looking around see what can he help out… Finally, he settled down by the pit, starting to ‘beng gang’ the food. Well… He challenges me to beng that chicken wings. Send him off at around 11pm. I was asking “where are you approaching to?” He replies going to frend’s house. But but, tomorrow he has school to attend. I started to think did he come all the way for this BBQ then go to his frend’s house somewhere near Pair Ris, then go back to school together the next day. Erm… I feel bad!

Did some housekeeping in the room, washing and throwing of utensils, washing of corridors after everything ends. I prefer doing the cleaning job. Hahaha~ Wake up real early the last day to check out. Not having a good mood… Sleep all the way back home.

World Filled With Love – Craig David

[Verse]

Saw some pictures in the paper,

of a girl I’d met the day before.

I couldn’t believe that hours later,

I had reporters knockin at my door,

But I used to dream about,

the life I’m living now and,

I didn’t think I’d miss those things from the past,

and I’m not afraid of leaving,

or letting go of what I had,

cause I realize that now there’s no turning back.

[Chorus]

Cause I’m caught living in a world filled with love,

so when tear drops fall from me like rain from above,

I can brush my troubles away,

know that deep down inside,

I got sun shining in my life.

[Verse]

I used to think I could get better,

my girlfriends always used to get me wrong.

Some just sent messages, love letters,

but those kinda feelings never lasted long.

Cause now the only love I find’s within a castle made of sand,

and when the tide goes out it’s swept away.

Though I got my peace of mind,

and time is firmly on my side,

and through the battles I can safely say…

[Music Break]

[Chorus]

Cause I mean I’m caught living in a world filled with love,

so when tear drops fall from me like rain from above,

I can brush my troubles away,

know that deep down inside,

I got sun shining in my life.

I’m caught living in a world filled with love,

so when tear drops fall from me like rain from above,

I can brush my troubles away,

know that deep down inside,

I got sun shining in my life.

Yawn… Now i’m in SP, T2054. In fact, many of us here. We will miss the school. Actually it just reminds me tat we are going to part… (T.T)

And another shooping trip for me, Laily and Kenny yesterday. Cheers, pals. (^.^)

Second entry of the day… Not my way of doing actually.

Having ‘mood swing’, and i feel terrible. Now browsing the Friendster pictures and i saw him. He changes his pix. Too many things happen within this Decemeber, frm his birthday, to meet him out for collection of present, to our committment to go shopping, to gathering and stuff…

Seeing him too much is not an good idea. Contacting him too much is not the right choice.

Now, i left with nothing.

Everytime i lost him, i will be like desparately looking for him. Should i say i’m tired of all these nonsense? Should i put in this little ‘regrets’ for whatever i’ve been doing in the past?

Everyone praises him… Should i?

Ever since dunno when I have not been tagging along with my parents for shopping. So, my daddy returns home early. And the kpo me just tag along with both my parents to shop for new year clothing. We go places like Boon Lay, Jurong East, and all those wulu wulu neighborhood shopping centers. It’s a long time I neber go to these places. Used to shop for new year clothing there when I’m small. But now… Sigh… Quite a fruitful trip. I bought 3 tops and 1 three-quarter bottom. But I will still be hunting for more in the next shopping trip.

Second half of the day, spend my times with my NUH triage staff at Holland Village’s Swensen. Just a simple gathering to bid goodbye to whoever who are not coming back. Just all the best. Happen to hear from 1 of the staff that a complain has been wrote to the Straits Times’s Forum. Erm… Complaining that the thermal scanner staff uses his handphone during working hours. Not serious in work and stuff. I’m not veri sure about the details either. Perhaps, someone can look up for me and post it somewhere? But I noe the ‘heads’ are very concern about such matters.

Whoo hoo… Happy New Year 2004, people! Make my wishes first! (1) I want myself to be happy and healthy. (2) I want my pocket to have more money. (3) I want all of my pals to have their dreams come true.

This will be a long entry… … … … … … … … …

Yesterday attended a gathering with Chen Hui and Yi Mei. Supposedly to have 4 people, last minute the other gone missing. Nah… We still haf a great time together. Sincerely wanna thank Chen Hui from renting the car for such ‘special occasion’. Very honored to have a lift from friend. Driving skill not bad, zai lor… (*Hint hint: Anyone who pass their license, can you please bring me out for a spin? I will appreciate it very much one.) Landed up in Holland Village to eat ‘Fei Cui Xiao Chu’. Yummy! We ordered the scallops and it’s like so BIG. And I eat a lot. Hahaha~ Chats, laughters, problems sharing. Whenever I meet up with them, I like to listen to what they have to say. I dunno why. They have very interesting issues to talk about bah.

Next stop is the Labardor Park. Somewhere near the Pasir Panjang. To be exact, the opposite side of this park is the Sentosa. Many say that Labardor park is haunted. Well… If you are a ‘Hey, Singapore!’ fan, you should aware that they do investigate about the tunnels that are able to link to the Sentosa. One of the tunnels is located there. Hmm… Haunted as in WWII, soldiers have been there. So many complained that they heard marching footsteps of the soldier troops. Spooky~ We found a good spot at the jetty for chats. We just have plain lot to say. Then then to Mount Faber again. The wind is damn real blowing hard and cold. Mei catch a cold after that. Weak sial… Hahaha~

Send Mei home straight after this. Erm… As for me… I requested Chen Hui to take me for a spin. So both of us went to the Jurong Hill, just a small lane up from the Jurong Bird Park. Both of us walk up the spiral building, overlooking the Jurong Island. Bright lights flickering in the silent night while both of us continue our chats. People change too much. And at thimes, I really think I need to slightly slower down my pace, give my pals a pat on the shoulder and ask ‘How are you?’ What Chen Hui says usually I treat them as a golden piece of advice. Maybe because I dun haf a brother to guide me, I admire people with mature mentality and personality, especially guys. It just makes me listen to them. At least I feel comfortable and I find my way to what I should do. And and Chen Hui, you are a good advisor. But mind you, dun get too proud when you read this hor?! Keke~ Ended my day at 3:30am. Tat’s tiring.

As for today, I start my day with Geargina at Choa Chu Kang Kbox. First time there. Nice environment. Practically, I dunno what has happen to my voice. It sounds airy and so damn soft. Arghh…

Dinner at Breeks, Marina Square. Spend money again. Have a very enjoyable meal with my click (Lester, Jacky, Serene, Qin and Geargina). Very fulling… What I like best is the desert, the fruit tarts. Yum yum! I din really eat according to appetizer to main course to desert. I jump straight to main course then to desert then to main course to desert again. Luan hor? And I have been telling them ‘I’m an angel!’ But none is convinced. Is it really that hard to lie to an angel? Anyway, I’m really an angel. Hahaha~ I promise I din drink, but I noe I’m talking rubbish. Hahaha~

Walk around in the Carrefour, looking for fire cracker. Din manage to find any. Instead, we side-track a lot. Going to the toys department, vcd department and stationery department. Hahaha~ Last stop is the Esplande. And the crowd is so pack. Not forgetting what ones are waiting for. Waiting for a good chance to see the fireworks. Hahaha~ And the fireworks are real beautiful. Everything lasted to around 10 minutes. Quite long… This is my 3rd time seeing fireworks.

Haf been on phone chat wif Kenny last nite… Just sum casual ones… Time to noe more about others. Another amazing person. (^.^)

Haf been on a ‘bo charp’ attitutes or moods throughout these few years. Towards frends, towards life, towards wateva i shouldn’t or dun need to noe. And sleeping becomes so important tat i just throw eveything out of mind, put them aside when i’m lack of sleep. Haf been making noises when ppl wake me up frm unpleasant noises, trying to play a fool wif me… They sure ganna one. Just tat i haven bang my door, throw things at ppl yet. Dun let me do so… And i won’t feel sorry.

Din hear my alarm clocks (3 actually) go off. So wake up a bit late, veri tight time to wash up. Today is my last day. Supposely to be a happy day, but sumthing terrible happen. My colleague, Asnani, charges her handphone under a table, counter 7 for outpatient. She left it hidden in a box, and then, gone missing. She is so sad about that. Partly becoz she lost something, but the main issue is she noe the ‘theif’ is within our own colleagues. This is not the first time such theft incidents happened. Just feel so disappointed wif the own staff.

Tini and Ana (shif leader from south entrance) went to the security office to view the video tape. Though the camera doesn’t directly face the counter 7, but Ana told me she roughly noe who is the one who take it. It’s our ppl!!! I din go on to ask, coz i dun want too much info to leak out, just hope tat the theif can be caught red-handed.

Therefore, part of my day is spoilt. But manage to take photos wif the rest of my colleagues. We will haf more chances on the next gathering day…

Ana oso ask me whehter wanna go rafting in malaysia. I agree wif her. She has lobang for tat, a tour agency in malaysia. But i told her i will be available in may to june like tat. She is sending me a quotation, keeping me in contact. Well… Anyone interested in this oso? Accompany me… Provided u r ‘ON’ ones.

Then, my dad fetch me to collect the samsung phone i reserve for my sister. Wat the fucking hell is tat… I need to wait for at least 3 to 4 hrs in order to be served. Goodness gracious. It’s alreadi 9pm when i reach and then more waiting hours? I have a whole 100 customers in front of my queue. Sian… Drop out halfway and promise to collect it for my sister tml when the shop starts its operating.

I doubt i will be sleeping early tonight. Haf been trying to contact HIM. He rang me at 5:10:31pm. I did hear it, but too many crowds to serve. Din pick up the phone. Damn it… And i can’t find him now. We promise to go shopping de…

Still scratching over those ‘love bites’ by the mosquitoes. Itchy sial…

Today is 1 of colleagues last day. Nah… Feel so sad. Coz tml is mine and serene’s turn. Cum specially earlier to meet up with the rest of the morning shift pals, just in case they are not working tml. I jus can’t bear to leave. All my hardship are there, close relationships built up… And now, we are flying into different directions…

Wanna say THANK YOU here, quietly… For all their love, care, concern and the endless daily gossips… I will miss all these days without them.

Today go Pulau Ubin wif my NSC classmates. My veri first trip to Ubin, so excited. What I like most is the to and fro ferry trips actually. It reminds me of canoeing years back in a combine schools camp. Cool~ Water or generally sea just helps me to relax.

Ubin’s life is really back to primitive, veri simple life… Rented bicycle from the rental shop and we headed straight into the forest. I gotta some rubber tree’s seeds back. I wonder is the road bumpy or the route that Leon (our lecturer) takes is challenging, my buttock aches. Many up-slopes and down-slopes.

We look around to see plants, mangrove swamps, spiders, peacocks, ducks, chickens, mud-skippers, wild boar too… Guess we are damn real luck. Get to learn a lot from Leon. He is a real nature lover. To talk about the trip, it will be endless…

And I achieve my motive too! To get myself tanner. Erm… But onli manage to ‘roast’ my back and hands. Got quite a bit of mosquitoes bites… Itchy! Itchy!

Lalalalala~ Merry Christmas to everybody…

24th December, me stil need to work then join the rest of my gang at Ponderosa, Marina. Veri rushy for me… I din noe they dun intend to extend the operating hours. Hai me gobbling most of my food at my last bit. Sigh… With my veri big big stomach, i force myself to the Esplande. We stroll around at the ampitheatre area. People are gathering in grps, some singing christmas carols, some play harmonica… Well… We? Exchange gifts lor. We draw lots to determine who takes who’s. And dunno draw how many times lor… Until none get to draw their own gift. Kekeke~ Gotta attracted by the voice of the singer frm the pub. All very nice, familar ones – frm blue to robbie williams. And i gotta my clue 3. Not veri satisfying answer. Sigh…

After the countdown, we walk all our way back to Orchard, Cineleisure. On the way, ppl are holding on to cans of sprays. If really ganna u huh, i guess u will be scolding ‘wat leow’ one. But festive seasons…. Think they are too ‘high’. Gottan a new nick frm the rest of the click. Damn so funny. So, in the end left the 4 of us (me. lester, jacky and laily) for the movie, LOVE ACTUALLY… So before the movie started, we sit in at the Buttercup Cafe. I ordered the Mandarin Orange Mist. Goodness gracious… Too sweet lor. None are pleased and satisfied wif their drinks. Sigh…

So second part of the nite is to call everyone on their mobile to disturb them. First called Johnson. Haf quite a lot to catch up wiff him actually. So do the others. Second victim is Kenny. Hahaha~ Laily seems drunk wif her apple juice. Dunno wat she really tok rots to Kenny. Hahaha~ It’s so funny. Last poor chap is Bernard. He is about to sleep when his mobile rings. Sure take some times to go back to the sleep mode again lor. Poor chap!

As for the movie, i haf been struggling hard to keep myself awake. This show i really like it. It’s heartwarming and motivating (to me). I still remember the establishing scene. It all starts with an airport arrival hall or stuff. There they go the lines: Everywhere is filled with love. When the airplane hits the Twin Towers, all the phone calls made are messages of love not hatred. Wha… I like the best friend part the most, where 1 guy likes his best friend’s wife. And the resolution portion of the story, how this guy confessed and admitted his feelings towards her. Oh god! So sweet… But things can’t be change. She is alreadi married. Sigh… Why why why? Just feel kinda sour when i see this. Nah…

The show ended at ard 6:30am. Take a bus home and reach home safe and sound by 7:20am. And i just sleep like nobody’s business in the bus. I sleep everywhere. Sleep until 1 plus in the afternoon. Then back to work.

Today’s triage point so much different. But veri nice. (^.^) And i haf been praising the carpenters for the great job they did over nite. It’s a miracle…

Yesterday went to shop in the Orchard area… Wha sey… Go home lie flat in the bed, fall asleep within 5 minutes…

Sob! Sob! The entire 3 to 4 hours shopping, onli manage to grab 1 pair of hipster jeans, 1 xmas card and tat xmas gift for exchange one. Hai… See a lot of stuff on the way, but once i see the price tag, i sigh… I din haf enuff to cover for my debt, barely enuff… Basically i want to buy another hipster, a few tops, shoes, jacket, purse. Tat’s all in my list. But will be going for another round of shopping soon.

I suddenly feel veri stupid yesterday. Haf been veri clumsy, example: trip at the curb of a pillar, my head nearly knock into sumone’s back. Hahaha~ Dunno wat am i doing. Guess is not enuff sleep. Hahahaha~ No lah… My eyes are swollen actually.

A… Haf been surfing from blogs to blogs. Reading and thinking of what others are saying. Suddenly see many down-feeling souls, i started to feel down too… There seems to haf a lot of feelings i can’t describe, but i definitely need a good cry. I wanted to watch tat ‘Meteor Garden’ VCDs again. Coz i share a lot of memories and endless tears.

Haf been lectured by frendz to get my relationship thingy settled. Sigh… I have nothing more to say. At times, i see sum others more potential than he does, but jus doesn’t haf such strong feelings as compared to him. So, i also doubt how devoted i can be… So far not many can make my heart goes ‘thub! thub!’, cold sweats on my hand, legs cannot coordinate well when i’m walking, make me feel so shy, dun dare to look at the other party’s eyes… Not many… So… Sigh… No conclusion still tis time…