Today haf been laughing too much…

Firstly, is abt PENG – a guy frm NUH. Well~ We haf been match-making him to Laily. This guy is really good. Personality wise, from what i noe him, he is very blabbly, very responsible, very out-going, humorous enuff… But wat i describe is not the main issue.

We went to NUH specially to meet him up for lunch. He veri ON one… Hahaha! Too bad~ We are late, he has taken his lunch… Den we haf benn crapping abt those stupid stupid impossible scenario. Laugh till our fullest. And Bong, dun tell me u dun feel nervous lor. I’m sure i did u make u feel so. As we are approaching nearer and nearer to our destination…. Ahahahha~ We haf been joking abt the babies Laily may haf… Each wif different guy. So this shall describe her bah…

“What’s the difference between biology and sociology?

When the baby looks like his dad or mom, then it is biology.

When the baby looks like the neighbor, then it is sociology.”

Den Jacky~ Muz haf been asking is my bf (you). Kaoz~ Den i tell him ur sis (bong) is here. Haha~

Thanks to those who make my days full of laughters. Luv ya~

Yesterday went gym at Choa Chu Kang. Workout for around 45 min. I think is not enough. If wanna really slim down… Eh… Need to do more homework. Last time still can run 3rd in a cross-country team but now… Haiz… Fat sial… Yue lai yue bu man yi my figure. Hahahaha~

Just a sudden thought tat pops up. Because something happened and I sense something. So this is what I’m gonna express:

Because I ended my previous one,

Because I met you,

Because of my feelings to you,

We have dragged this “relationship” for years.

Relationship maybe a strong word to define our ties,

But you know what’s going on…

I have contradicting feelings and comments about you,

Sorry for my suspiciousness,

Sorry for the lack of mutual trust.

I lost faith,

And I guess, I nearly lost you…

That’s why I told myself to keep my door open,

So that I won’t have a chance to cry at the dead-end ally.

But I slowly discovered,

I have never done so.

People have been entering at different points,

Yet I told myself – ‘They are just interesting people who came into my life’.

You are my main stream,

The others are just my electives.

My door has not been opened for others,

And I really hope the person who does is you.

Forgive me if others come in with the duplicate keys,

They deserve their chances…

With me…

Still very contradicting. Kaoz… I’m neither unhappy nor sad. Just a thought to put down…

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This is all my analysation:

Love – Crab Egg Salad: Long for romantic love

Money – Tamago: Like buying your friends gifts

Career – Anago: You set high goals, long for fame, you are persistent and diligent

Family – Yellow Tail: Your mood swings easily, your demands keep changing, you feel annoyed about your family

Wish – Salmon: Wish to break through yourself

Well~ I tink this is quite true…

Ai yo~ So heng… I saw HIM jus now at Jurong. So we take bus 176 hm. Well~ He, as usual, going to dunno which frend hse. I kao beh to HIM that I can’t find him for Laily’s BBQ. Maybe he see my face black black, that’s why he keep explaining where he has went during the new year period.

I should feel happy, but I din… Though this is a short meet up but I’m quite relieve to see HIM doing well. Actually I haf a lot to say to HIM, but a sudden sian-ness stops everything. Somebody who is so near yet so far. Haiz…

His appearance today is gonna spoilt my whole nite…

A bit mood swing. Continuation frm last nite. But i’m much better. Those who noe me shld noe. 1 moment i’m sad, the other i’m blabbly talking non-stop. So, u can basically ignore me. Ha~

Today i haf a surprise visit by Karen and Laily. They cum to my hse to chit chat. Gals talk again.

We sing SHE’s songs loudly in my room. Nobody complain. Blasting my hifi also. Haha~ Quite pleasant to get to share some common conversation topics and thoughts. These few days, my life is filled wif these 2 ladies. Funny~ Haha~

Happy 21st Birthday, Bong!

Celebrated her birthday last sunday. Haf been planning stuff wif Karen and Serene. Busy us… Though some of the plans din work out, but we still haf an enjoyable moment, an enjoyable nite. The fun part is when we pour the flour, eggs and glitters onto her. And i still remember Qin gave me a ‘Charcoal Hand Touch’ on my shoulder. Thank u Laily lor… Hug me when i din notice her, and when she is still dirty. Sorry for the absurd, obscene scream. Just can’t control myself. Lester’s mum cake is so damn SOLID. Delicious… Thanks, man… Heez… Haf been staying overnite at Serene’s place. Accompanied by Kenny, Robert, Serene and Laily. Went to eat at 4 plus… Sleep all the way till 12pm. Happy to hear little news here and there. Best wishes to everyone. (^.^)

Monday, went to visit the Body Work Exhibition wif Karen, Christopher and Laily. Very very long queue to the ticket booth. Very very excited. In the end, i feel rather disappointed wif wat i see. Erm… This is an educating exhibit, but i dun feel the reality. It’s more like plastic scultures than human bodies. My most enjoyable part is the foetus exhibits section. One side, it shows the normal growing stages of a foetus. The other side shows the abnormal babies wif all the defects like without top head shell. Yucks… The embryo is oso interesting…

But this morning… Karen and i witnessed an accident on the double decker bus. Both are stunned. We went dumb for the rest of the journey. A car hit into a motorbike. The back passenger (lady) in the motorbike, flew out. Gosh…

Rather a tired day for me. Dunno why. And i become so restless that i go straight to the toilet cubicle and slept there for 5 to 10 min. Oh yah… Went to this So-Food foodcourt at Biopolis, Bouna Vista. This is food heaven to the people like us. I dun remember complaining much abt the food i had at my side. But u should be able to weigh which side taste better.

And me~ Seriously LOVE SICK… I started my routine again. All the sadness came back. Thoughts of changing a target, thoughts of investing my love on some other just came back. I weigh myself again. How much do i weigh inside him? Rather disappointed… Throughout the BBQ, i heard his name quite a number of times. It isn’t tat he din accompanied me to the BBQ tat i’m upset over. I think i just lost him again. Still remember wat Calvin commented on him. Why ppl praise him? Why ppl see his positive sides but nt the negative sides? Is he tat real good?

Fed up~

Too much of a thing and i decided to chuck all away…

Utterly a bad week…

People take for granted for everything. The same incidents happened, just that one happen on u and the other happen on the others. But then, u will jump and yell when it happens on u. Human~ I’m just sick of all these rubbish.

And people trying to explain themselves every now and then. I try to explain myself oso. But just 1 face, 1 eye contact, 1 fucking comment, they still reserve the same old thinking. And i know…

Saw Bernard on bus 176. So strange. And a total stranger to me…

My pain is still giving me problems. I can’t eat, drink and breathe. Every now and then I feel a sharp pain in my chest.

Being dragged to the clinic to see doctor. I showed him the medicine that I’m currently consuming regarding acne. Kaoz… The doctor says this is a good antibiotics for acne. But the side effect is the gastric may not be able to take it. Gosh… The Skin Center Doctor din tell me about this…

And now… I haf to stop whatever acne medicine I’m taking, take those gastric tablets instead. Pain ah~ The clinic doctor even say “No orange, no watermelon, no pineapple, no papaya, no coffee, no tea and most importantly no ALCOHOL!” I at least consume 2 or more of these in these 2 days. I took watermelon, alcohol yesterday. Today take pineapple and teh su su today. Sigh…

Not feeling any better from all those aches and pains from my chest. Kaoz… Onli manage to stop the vomiting.

Today went to Leon’s house for visiting. Haf been crapping damn lot wif Karen in the train. Really from heaven to hell, east to west. Even talk abt ‘BARCODE HEAD’. Laugh until both of us tear. Leon’s hse is at Tampines. First impression, very clean, neat and tidy. The hse looks new but he has been living there for 18 years. Cannot believe it. He has no television set, his hi-fi is actually cd-player output to 2 speakers. Cool~ Something like going back to primitive life, simple…

We ate pizza and kfc. Karen and me just non-stop laughing and giggling. The whole hse find us weird. Hahaha~ Leon showed us his photos and portfoilio. Well… We say ‘Whoa!’ Later, the rest of the students watch ‘Water Boy’ using imac while me, Karen and Leon get our chatting going on. Talk abt his fyp groups, abt lecturers, abt modules (DEAE)… In the end, he offers Gin Tonic to the 4 of us who are willing to try. He mixes lemon with 2 capful of Dry Gin and dilute it with Tonic Water. Me and Karen find it too gentle. So we help ourselves in the kitchen. I added one and a half capful (which makes it three and a half), Karen added one more. They all no face red red leh… Onli me… Face and ears. But I’m conscious lor. A bit hot lah but not as bad as I thought it will be.

Travel all the way back to my hse and I invited Laily, Karen and Serene. Haf a lot of talking going on. Gals talk~ Then to Serene’s hse till like 11:30pm. Again, gals talk…

Haf been feed with different information through those gals talk. Veri enriching and I manage to noe each other better. Quite relieve to see ppl with same thoughts. Treasure the moments…

Haf been terribly unwell… Wake up 4am and vomit till 5am. Goodness… Nothing comes out but it’s the feeling of vomiting. I thought I din drink enough water to wash down the medicine I take at nite. But the feelings last till now, can’t be it rite?

Still can eat. But every 5 to 10 seconds, I feel like throwing up. Feel pain in my throat and chest area, as though something stuck in my throat. Haf to hold my breath to stop the throwing up feelings and to stop the pain.

Went to NUH to work today. See quite a number of new faces. They are nice people. And of course, not forgetting the old triage staff. Especially Nurhidaiya, ever so friendly. Ganna argue with the family of ward 51 bed 1. Fucking damn it! 2 times and 2 times ganna me. Shit…