Month: January 2004

Too much of a thing and i decided to chuck all away…

Utterly a bad week…

People take for granted for everything. The same incidents happened, just that one happen on u and the other happen on the others. But then, u will jump and yell when it happens on u. Human~ I’m just sick of all these rubbish.

And people trying to explain themselves every now and then. I try to explain myself oso. But just 1 face, 1 eye contact, 1 fucking comment, they still reserve the same old thinking. And i know…

Saw Bernard on bus 176. So strange. And a total stranger to me…

My pain is still giving me problems. I can’t eat, drink and breathe. Every now and then I feel a sharp pain in my chest.

Being dragged to the clinic to see doctor. I showed him the medicine that I’m currently consuming regarding acne. Kaoz… The doctor says this is a good antibiotics for acne. But the side effect is the gastric may not be able to take it. Gosh… The Skin Center Doctor din tell me about this…

And now… I haf to stop whatever acne medicine I’m taking, take those gastric tablets instead. Pain ah~ The clinic doctor even say “No orange, no watermelon, no pineapple, no papaya, no coffee, no tea and most importantly no ALCOHOL!” I at least consume 2 or more of these in these 2 days. I took watermelon, alcohol yesterday. Today take pineapple and teh su su today. Sigh…

Not feeling any better from all those aches and pains from my chest. Kaoz… Onli manage to stop the vomiting.

Today went to Leon’s house for visiting. Haf been crapping damn lot wif Karen in the train. Really from heaven to hell, east to west. Even talk abt ‘BARCODE HEAD’. Laugh until both of us tear. Leon’s hse is at Tampines. First impression, very clean, neat and tidy. The hse looks new but he has been living there for 18 years. Cannot believe it. He has no television set, his hi-fi is actually cd-player output to 2 speakers. Cool~ Something like going back to primitive life, simple…

We ate pizza and kfc. Karen and me just non-stop laughing and giggling. The whole hse find us weird. Hahaha~ Leon showed us his photos and portfoilio. Well… We say ‘Whoa!’ Later, the rest of the students watch ‘Water Boy’ using imac while me, Karen and Leon get our chatting going on. Talk abt his fyp groups, abt lecturers, abt modules (DEAE)… In the end, he offers Gin Tonic to the 4 of us who are willing to try. He mixes lemon with 2 capful of Dry Gin and dilute it with Tonic Water. Me and Karen find it too gentle. So we help ourselves in the kitchen. I added one and a half capful (which makes it three and a half), Karen added one more. They all no face red red leh… Onli me… Face and ears. But I’m conscious lor. A bit hot lah but not as bad as I thought it will be.

Travel all the way back to my hse and I invited Laily, Karen and Serene. Haf a lot of talking going on. Gals talk~ Then to Serene’s hse till like 11:30pm. Again, gals talk…

Haf been feed with different information through those gals talk. Veri enriching and I manage to noe each other better. Quite relieve to see ppl with same thoughts. Treasure the moments…

Haf been terribly unwell… Wake up 4am and vomit till 5am. Goodness… Nothing comes out but it’s the feeling of vomiting. I thought I din drink enough water to wash down the medicine I take at nite. But the feelings last till now, can’t be it rite?

Still can eat. But every 5 to 10 seconds, I feel like throwing up. Feel pain in my throat and chest area, as though something stuck in my throat. Haf to hold my breath to stop the throwing up feelings and to stop the pain.

Went to NUH to work today. See quite a number of new faces. They are nice people. And of course, not forgetting the old triage staff. Especially Nurhidaiya, ever so friendly. Ganna argue with the family of ward 51 bed 1. Fucking damn it! 2 times and 2 times ganna me. Shit…

Still working on the design… More to be added on! New Year new look…

Just wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!

And this is so far, the shun yan layout and combination. Keke~

Haf been going for New Year visiting these 2 days… Tired… Only manage to see them once in a year. Sigh… Everyone seems to haf his or her own story to tell. Family stories especially. A lot of thoughts flood into my mind.

Some talk about their unfilial sons and daughters-in-law, some talk about their brothers and sisters, some talk about money issues. And I’m sick and tired of the ugly sides of human…

Dun feel excited at all this year. On the surface, maybe a ‘Yes’, but I feel more or less different.

And I thought I could play with my aunt’s dog today. But he died a couple of months ago. Tears filled my aunt’s eyes when she is telling my mum about this. I silently sit at the stool, trying hard to hide my sadness, swallowing my tears. I just feel so helpless when I encounter all these life and death thing.

I own a dog and I know how my aunt feels. And I’m veri sure I shall lose my senses if Pi Pi is gonna leave me. Sad…

Well… Tml i gotta work in NUH. But looking forward to sunday’s visit @ Leon’s hse. I’m gonna buy a watermelon there. Yum Yum!

Yesterday went Chinatown with Laily, Kenny and Xing Cai. Weird combination. Erm… Raining lor… So nobody one. Neber shop in the rain before. It has also been a long time i ever drenched myself in the rain. Fun! Thank you for all ur company. Heez~

Haf been held down by Xing Cai downstair, giving me advice on my problem. Erm… I tink it doesn’t help. Me simply din haf any feelings to talk about relationship. Perhaps, i’m emotionally stable yesterday. Hahaha~ I just head back home and sleep like a log. No single thought abt anything. Cool rite?!

And rainy days… Haf been seeing a lot of cockroaches. Nah… (T.T)

A… Did anyone tune in to 98.7FM today? At ard 12:45pm to 12:54pm? I dedicated BLUE’s song, U Make Me Wanna, to all the SP DMMT students who are hafing their attachment. Hahaha~ Heng heng ganna selected. Phew…

Today quite a bit of holiday mood. We have been going back to school for lunch. We even ask our boss to send us to school. Crazy us! But having real lots of fun! And we happily late for at least 30 to 45 minutes. Hahaha~ On our way back, me, Laily, Jean, Karen form our own team – S.H.I.T. Our manager-in-charge is Serene. Ppl S.H.E. we S.H.I.T. cool rite?!

S = Stupid Jean

H = Horny Hiang

I = Idiotic Bong

T = Tai tai Karen

Then we haf been practising the self-introduction parts. The most common one is: “Hallo everybody! We are S.H.I.T.!” Then to each individual introduction. Initially thought of giving the colleagues a surprise. Let our manager leads the way, push open the door, and then we pose and shout out our grp name. But dunno whether is our boss in, so we drop this idea. We are afraid that the boss asks us not to come tml onwards. Hahaha~ It’s all crap lah.

But real funny working with all these siao char bor.Everyday, we will each share some cold humour, talk rots, gossip, thinking where to eat, thinking how to “seduce” the boss and LO. Hahaha~ Previously our LO, Tim R, wanna come on the Monday. So we gang up together, those who haf low-cut wear low-cut, those who haf mini skirt wear mini skirt. Hahaha~ And all of us did! Erm… Disappointing is Tim R din manage to turn up. Sigh…

Haben been sleeping till now. Damn tired and wear out…

Thank you, Kenny… If not i may haf fallen into deep snory sleep…

Today went to Nature Park Office at Thomson Road. Wha… Super deserted. Need to pass thru some golf course. They are simply beautiful. Big and wide. Hmm… If i can haf a restort of my own, jus like the golf course, i will be tanning frm day to nite. Cool~

Then, rush back to work in NUH. Saw Qin’s parents. At first still not veri sure whether am i rite, but after asking where are their residential address, i can CONCLUDE- I’M RITE… Heez~

Friday…. Hurray! Looking forward for Chinese New Year and the steamboat and Laily’s birthday and my BLACKMAN and my WHITEMAN. Hahaha~

Erm… Learn a lot these few days, especially how to use Illustrator. Some of the things are not taught. And i’m veri sure, i get to noe a little bit more each day. And i can listen to FM while doing my work… Hahaha~

Haf been thinking wild these few days. Abt my dreams, abt the new year, abt HIM… Floodings of different issues and matters. Arghh… Let’s talk abt dreams… Heez~

First dream:

Dream of myself being possess by another spirit. I wanted her to leave my body. And i haf been struggling hard to talk. Then tat ‘she’ also wanted to talk. She said out some terms, but in conclusion, she doesn’t want to leave my body. In the end, she disfigured me by slicing my face wif knife. Blood gushing out and stuff. This is terrible…

Second dream:

This is the most ridiculous one. I dreamt that i’m a whore. And i haf been drive by a guy to different places to meet my so-call ‘clients’. Damn… So disgusting to say them… I dunno where the heck i got tis ‘inspiration’ to dream of this. A total crap man. Idiot!

3rd day of ITP… Though 3rd day of ITP, but seems like ans feels like we belong to one company – da sense of belonging.

Today do layout of the screen captures into comic format. Interesting. Learn sumthing oso. Cool… And i haf stuff my drawers wif all the food and drinks and tissue paper… Heard that we are being paid for $400. Nah… Pretty expected. And erm… Ever since the first day, we are already embarking on real projects, so feel slightly stress up, but quite occupied.

Colleagues they are fine. And we haf 1 particular colleague graduates from DMMT. Well… He “speak evil” (actually gossip) abt other lecturers in school. Like Keneath Seah, Tim R… That’s funny…