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当你决定你要离开我
我没有说什么
就当作你自由

有好几次我都想忘了
苦酒也没有用
就当作是寂寞

只有我能明白 他的温柔
对你是种解脱
其实要告诉我 只是你的最爱

[Chorus]
其实你很爱他 对我的惩罚
说你没有想他 谁可怜我吧
我也没有借口 只能放手
不敢奢求 你说爱我

其实你很爱他 他很温柔吗
其实你很想他 就说出口吧
我也不想多说 捂住朵
不想再次听到你说
你很爱他

Forwarding emails is the way to remind you of someone’s presence. I find this too cold to take it.

2nd Anniversary
2 weeks ago we celebrated our 2nd anniversary at Seoul Garden because Chan has craving for bbq stuff. The variety of food has reduced greatly as compared to the past.

Chan has decorated his bedroom ceiling with glow-in-the-dark blue and orange stars. Why the ceiling because i spend most of my weekends in his bedroom doing homework. And usually stayed over. It’s really like seeing a whole sky of stars when lying on the bed. Lo-mantic~ Hahaha~

I draw 2 pillow cases for chan, using both the mascot for onezero24.net. Still incomplete though, sacrificing around 3 pillow cases. Probably do it digitally and do a print instead.

May us be happy always~ Love ya~

Nicole’s 19th Birthday
Last Friday was Nikki’s birthday, she invited me and Chan to the Singapore Polo Club for the party (together with the rest of my uni classmate). Dresscode is formal, so i manage to find something that will fit. Heez~

Spent quite a bit of time doing her present: a collection of yan dao kias photo (whom we ask around on the street or even our school mates) superimpose to form a deck of poker cards. My 2 friends did a very pro amphigram asthe deck design while i did the inside. We have something like a POWER card, who is our disgusting nude male model who dripped. And some blank cards for the class to write their greetings on. Went Masa to trim my hair too.

Party is more or less sit-and-eat kind. Oh yes, her mum force everyone in our table to drink. Hahaha~ And we managed to get to the stables for horse visiting. This is my very first time seeing these horses in such a close proximity.

In Santa Monica, in the wintertime,
The lazy streets so undemanding
I walk into the crowd
In Santa Monica, you get your coffee from
The coolest places on the promenade
Where people dress just so
Beauty so unavoidable, everywhere you turn
It’s there.
I sit and wonder what am I doing here?

[Chorus]
But on the telephone line I am anyone
I am anything I want to be.
I could be a super model or Norman Mailer
And you wouldn’t know the difference
Or would you?

In Santa Monica, all the people got modern names
Like Jake or Mandy
And modern bodies too
In Santa Monica, on the boulevard,
You’ll have to dodge those in-line skaters
Or they’ll knock you down
I never felt so lonely,
Never felt so out of place
I never wanted something more than this

[Chorus]
But on the telephone line I am anyone
I am anything I want to be
I could be a super model or Norman Mailer
And you wouldn’t know the difference
On the telephone line, I am any height
I am any age I want to be
I could be a caped crusader, or space invader
And you wouldn’t know the difference
Or would you?

Or would you?

But on the telephone line I am anyone
I am anything I want to be
I could be a super model or Norman Mailer
And you wouldn’t know the difference
On the telephone line, I am any height
I am any age I want to be
I could be a caped crusader, or space invader
And you wouldn’t know the difference
Or would you?

Recently discover the growth of some red spots on my body. It was first spotted on my thigh but somehow spread to my body and my hands. Not itchy though, shall visit my doctor when i’m more available…

The more you explore, the more you see, the more i dunno where my design style should be~

不笑的時候，顯得冷酷與淡漠，其實內心隱藏熱情，具長輩緣，也會得同輩與晚輩的喜愛與擁戴。不過，因為完美主義的傾向，而考慮太多難以下決定。對於討厭的人，會毫不保留地加以唾棄，討厭不公平的事情發生。

I think my heading is clear enuff… Arghhhh…

Did i do enough homework? Not really~ Sigh~

Lester and I have a boutique opening at IMM. I dunno what i am selling though but the shop is weirdly decorated with black and devil red. Guests-of-honors are from the hei she hui, all well-dressed with thick fur coat.

I remembered asking Lester to check out the radiator, making sure the temperature is alright for our guests while i go home to prepare dinner for suqin and serene (their birthday celebration). Lester, in the shop, recognises his cousin who he hasn’t met for long and followed him to the back door, leading to a staircase. There he finds his elder brother and his cousin leaving the function through this stairs. But before he can response, they turn and walk back towards his direction, leaving him alone in the staircase. Lots of policemen running upwards. He is mistakenly shot by the policemen.

On my side, all my friends did not turn up for the birthday that i have scheduled. But i waited patiently. A phone call, from Lester’s buddy, breaking his death news to me instead. I believe i am too lost at that instance, i don’t really know how to cry.

The next scene has brought me into my bedroom the next day, where suqin, laily and serene all gathered in my room. I started to question them, “Why you all are not there with me yesterday?” (as in the birthday). Then i break the death news to them. I realise i can’t hold my tears anymore.

I wake up with fright from this dream, realising i am at Lester’s house sleeping beside him. I am probably too confused with what’s real and what’s not but i woke him up and started crying. It takes me sometime before i am really calmed. But the feeling of being parted still sustain in my brain.