Did something real stewpig today. Reach school early at 8.30am and settle down in the library. Due to the comfortable sofa by the magazine rack and burning midnight oil for the past 2 days, i fell asleep in the library.
Consequence haf to bear: 30 minutes late for lesson. Most frustrating, the classroom is jus outside the library. Arghh…
昨天醒来发现窗外的风景有些不一样。橙黄色的树叶掉了一地，非常壮观，但也非常少见。
是不是今天没人打扫？刚睡醒的我还是搞不清出状况，没办法好好分析。直到下午Lester把车驾进停车场才说到：“这颗树要死了！”我其实还不敢相信，还为它辩护着说道：“它可能是在换季，所以树叶掉了一地。”（换季这么荒唐的事也说得出来，新加坡拿来的四季啊？）我还时不时望了望那棵树心想：您今天好美。
直到凌晨时分才回到家的我，望着停车场的地板，好像干净了许多。可是它却是那么孤单，那么害怕地静静站着。在老妈子还没睡前，我顺口问道：“那棵树是怎么了，树叶掉个不停？”
“那颗树要死了！”
我就像是被打了一下，愣住了。怎么好端端的却变成如此？为什么我在它垂危的时候还是选择否认了它的病况？为什么平时都没有注意一下它?那股生死一瞬间的感觉突然涌起，觉得非常可怕~
友人曾说过：你现在会怕死是因为你还有很多未完成的事。每当听到类似于生死有关的，心里就觉得不踏实起来，就毛毛的。我也忘了是什么时候开始的，可能就是从“那件事”开始的。
现在回想起那棵树，它依然在挣扎着。这肯定是一个漫长的痛苦~非常希望有奇迹的出现，让它恢复从前的光彩。如果真的不幸死去，我希望我再回头读这篇日记时，还记得它的样子。
为了学校的作业，我又开始种了绿豆。虽是小学生常爱做的”园艺活动”,我却不能不钦佩绿豆的顽强生命力。
明明就是一袋袋包装好，放在架子上许久的干绿豆，在数十日无水+无阳光+无泥+无养分地滋润下，依旧能发芽。它是不是在对我们说着要咬紧牙关，要能屈能伸？
我又有被逼进死胡同里的感觉，痛不欲生！为什么我总是要做超强吸收力的海棉？拼了命地吸，再任人用力地拃干？我没有地方可以藏身，只能在梦里和痛苦的躯壳分离。
刚开始对莫莫一些人改变看法，看来还是狗改不了吃屎，又再 take advantage of their situation 把你深深活埋了。觉得他们非常可恶~
我要飞到无人岛~除了我肥肥的 Lester Chan 以外，其他人都不想见了！！！
（那是气话，我周围当然还是有天使的~）
My darling promises to bring me to Night Safari and Jurong Bird Park during holiday. Just the thought is enough for me to sleep tight tonight. (n.n)
Can’t help falling in love with Hugh Grant again. I know, an old man already. But just his smile and his overall charisma is enough to make me crazy. Wish to meet him once in my lifetime. Hahaha~
But i’m suppose to promote Music and Lyrics. Very nice show with simple plot. Music just tie 2 strangers together and make love blossoms. The OST is incredibly 80’s. That’s not a bad comment, very soothing for people of my age.
[youtube=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-aUUKI9HHt4]
Way Back Into Love
I’ve been living with a shadow overhead
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I’ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on
I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I’ve been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh
I’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searching but I just don’t see the signs
I know that it’s out there
There’s got to be something for my soul somewhere
I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction
And I’m open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I’m hoping you’ll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I’ll be there for you in the end
Finally it’s weekend, I can gather my thoughts and prepare for the next week. This week is taxing due to my inefficiency, most of the homeworks are not completed. Endless nights of last minute production has almost burnt my Tuesday, Wednesday. Things get worst when i have an extra long day on the first 2 days of the week.
I’m promoting to year 2 in the coming August. Time really flies… ADM has been my home for 1 year. Had a Show-and-Tell session with all different departments in school. Yes, it’s time to choose my major. I am pretty firm that Visual Communication will be the one i am falling back on. If given a chance, i would like to venture into Product Design because i wanna do Lifestyle Design, but i dun dare to forgo what i have already know.
Presentation by the Visual Comm department is utterly disappointing. It shatters a lot of my classmates’ dreams and visions about this major. Firstly, the professor show a series of images that can be easily taken from magazine (rather commercialize stuff you can find in the market), we don’t see our senior work. Secondly, the modules outline is so vague that “Graphics Design 01” and “Typography 01” doesn’t give you much direction what these are actually doing. My classmate asks the professor in the refreshment, why there is no showcase of the 2nd year students’ work? The reply is pretty much unexpected – because they are unfinished. Probably, we are looking at the process and what the rest did at our level instead of the blink blink completed design. We simply dun care. We want works that are collated during this process of learning. Therefore, the flop of this presentation has shaken many of them to go into other majors like Animations or Interactive Design.
We are definitely very new (only consisting of year 1 & 2 students), modules and course outline are always in the process of adjustment. There is no standard of teaching, coz they take a very different approach in that. For example what we are going through now, GDIT alike module, Prof A will deliver the principles of design through various use of paint and paper media but Prof B goes into textile to deliver the same principles. So your skills and knowledge is influenced and built up by the style of your professor, not a program designed what are supposed to be done. Then it comes down to Heng-Suay, whether the prof’s teaching style suits and inspires you.
Our future lies in these very “promising” prof’s hands. Isn’t it very risky also? I can only say the system here sucks.
凌晨5点38分了，不是还没睡，只是今天又在忙通宵。一天要能睡超过4小时就可以偷笑了。1小时可能有点夸张，可是我常常都这样。对身体不好？这我也明白~ 不写了，后天再续。。。
我老爸是万事通！ 大小事都由他包了，我的功课也全靠他。其实真得很不好意思。老爸今晚说：“我做你的手工艺从你小学做到你上大学。”老爸，谁叫你手艺精湛又经验老到，比我还有脑袋！《二十四孝老爸》非他模数。。。