Author: sleepy

我还是心理很不平衡！很闷的感觉，有点要爆炸了！快气死我了！

Couldn’t balance my body hormones, i think i flare up like even on very minute stuff. Maybe i got hell lot of time and ample sleep to mind too much. I need to get busy in school and just play with my classmates. Bo liao-ers, probably they are not. They are just adults-dun-wanna-grow-up.

Anyway, i want to dump away my stuff. That includes anything that bothers me. Patience may never be with me. Be self-fish. Love yourself.

P/S: Anyone want to learn dancing?

I have this very weird body response whenever i visit places with books. Mega bookstores and libraries are great enemies to my bowel…

Times when i need to work on research in libraries or leisure browsing in bookstores, my stomach will start to churn. It’s not really a stomach upset feeling but more the urge to go toilet for BIG BUSINESS.

This routine works almost everytime so do how i handle this weird body response. I will ignore it usually, but the activity down there gets so ACTIVE that i can’t concentrate on what i am looking at. I will then surrender and visit the toilet then back to where i left off.

Maybe subconciously something left me a very bad impression of the bookstores. But i really cannot recall…

Someone just advise me that life is not a bed of roses. You won’t get to try all the things in your life.

I shall try to learn this and live with it.

Sick in my mind…

What is perfect? Something that is none exisiting? Perhaps…

I’ve started to give a thought to everything in my life – or just partial. Maybe putting a value against everything to justify if it worths as much attention, as much time, to throw or to maintain.

When there is no solution, sleeping cures the worries.

I bump into my colleague in the machine room (a room where all the photocopying work is done) today. So here’s the conversation:

D: So you are going back to school when?
Me: July lor… I mean start of August.
D: Wah… So good. Can work and can study.
Me: 哪里会~ Ok lah…
D: So you got do freelance doing school time ah?
Me: Got lah… But hardly. Sleep also no time liao.
D: You got do animation mah?
Me: 没有啦~ I specialise in graphic design. Never do animation.

Thinking back, I’m glad that i say i dun have time and i dun do animation. I suddenly remembered either she or her girlfriend is preparing for wedding. I am bitching about this because she sits right in front of me. All day long i have overheard things about preparing a wed. I have this guts feeling she wants to test water and ask me to do an animation.

Well… Firstly, i don’t know her enough in person. Secondly, in terms of work, she will get her work done and just do what she is within her scope. And anything out of that, she will not help and close her eyes. Thirdly, i dun like her boss, her department. I’m sorry but to be bias, i won’t like her as well. So these 3 reasons are enough for me to stay out from her.

I started to imagine… Imagine… Imagine…

Freelance life is pathetic. Pay is low, dateline is tight, demand is unreasonable, work is unsatisfactory, health is poor, school or work is cannot concentrate! 年轻不懂事就可以做 freelance. Slightly mature, you will think twice before taking a freelance. 再大一点,我就要多多地陪我自己 before 我进棺材, 不做 freelance 了.

On the other side of the coin, for those who engage freelancers, just think for them… Your 1 second frame of animation takes dunno how many sketchings and storyboardings before execution. Your 1 poster requires how many times of considerations for color combination, typography and layout. If you can afford, just go to a proper firm to do your job. Satisfactory guranteed! 谢谢大家~

Hasn’t been doing much except spending the premium part of my life (morning) working. Life back in the office ain’t really different or hard to adapt. People are the same, politics are the same and etc.

Chan and me talk over our dinner. I commented that i prefer to work with angmo, preferably with them as my boss. At least they will say things like “You’re a star!”, “You not just have a pretty face!”, “Great job!” and so on. While chinese bosses sometimes forget about these encouraging aspect and continue to slave you off. Angmos are more humorous. But most of the time i dun really know how to or even should i response to their jokes which is my failure.

In terms of work, once they are done, they move on faster. They don’t stay put and look too much into the nitty stuff. They move on, i move on. I thought this is the way i will stay creative and kicking in the company. They give me more freedom. Like or don’t like is just two choose one, very frank answer. Asian tend to beat around the bush, trying to be nice but not speaking what is on their mind. So the process becomes longer and slower, dragging like forever. And “maybe” is all i have heard.

Working in a familiar environment means several things:

1. You don’t get people bullying you.
2. You basically get things right the first time you do them.
3. Comfortable environment until you know what are the rules to break and what you can’t.
4. I get to go slightly late each day, but no one made a noise.
5. MSN messenger is the king~ Who cares if it is illegal?
6. I spotted and learn from my mistake from the older collaterals done by me. Yucks…
7. You still see the sick people who never change their working style.
8. These people and company remind you why you wanted to quit 2 years ago.

But i thought the nicest thing about going to work is to have $$$. I get to meet my beloved friends even more because they are equally bored at work. Hahaha~ Like on Wednesday, I met Bong and Serene at Sushi Teh Holland Village. It is only fixed up like in the afternoon. Friday another impromptu. We drag ourselves awake and chatted to 3am at CCK, despite Suqin KO and wake up in the middle. Then, my dad send all of us home. Just need to catch up with the time lost with friends. We are going to meet soon again right? Heez~

I missed a number of activities: diving, the freeze thingy at Taka and roller blading at runway. Hmm… Try harder next time bah. I need to relearn swimming in this holiday.

What do you think? Can you live without your tv?

It has been endless chionging of assignments ever since after exam. Unproductively, i onli just finished today. No time to rest though and i am beginning on my new job on Monday.

I little nervous despite that this is my old company, coz the management change, the people change. Anyway, i will be wearing my unfavorite perfume, listening to my mp3 player that i now hardly use. I need to relive the few moments of those working days. I want to wear beautiful tml, but my colleague told me i need to spend most of my time in the storeroom. Hai… Cannot wear cock cock shoes. Hahaha~

Hope everything goes well. Most importantly: don’t overslept.